it's difficult waffling between being horrendously jealous and also desperately wanting some stranger to take my fiancé from me. i would most likely even eagerly give up my position as his fiancé just so i can watch him be happy with another man. though, he's made it explicitly clear this isn't going to happen, and other than this strange desire we're just about as perfect for each other as anyone can be. i adore him, but I also distressingly find myself praying for him to meet a nice man who makes him weak-in-the-knees.