let me start by saying people have it worse than me. I have 2 amazing kids with my girlfriend of 12 years. We have been split for 8 months now. Right before she moved out we found out she was pregnant. That didn’t change her leaving. The baby is almost here. Sad part of all of this is that she is still in love with me and me not her. I have been depressed for many years and a very inconsistent father and now my kids have paid the price. Also to add onto all this I slept with my boss at work who is married to my little brothers friend and am falling in love with her throughout the time I’ve been seeing her. She has feelings for me also but if she really knew me she would run far away. She is way outta my league. I just want to be better but cannot change. It’s like I’m me for everyone else except me. I don’t show people who I truly am. I cannot kill myself cause I don’t want my kids to deal with that. Also i invested in a crypto that “could” net me millions in 15 days time. Fuck this