I self harm, like badly. I physically cannot bring myself to stop it and its causing me anemia it's gotten so bad. I keep buying better, sharper, easier blades to use. I keep doing it more every day. I've been doing this since I was 10-11. I'm terrified of myself and i know my body will never be the same so I don't want to give it up just so I have an excuse to hide myself. Nobody knows that I do it. I want to tell someone. So why not scream it out on the internet. I don't want to get better yet, but at the same time I want to stop being mentally ill. But I can't. I don't want advice here, I just want someone to know that I self harm and unserstand that it's an issue I have.