I'm admitting the fact that I have serious drug abuse issues. I use drugs and alcohol to cope with all of my problems. Currently I'm in a relationship that I can't leave...the whole kids thing..anyway I'm currently 7 days clean from the pills, but I'm still drinking. I have a great life really...the woman I want away from treats me wonderful. I have an ex I think about but I'm not obsessed with. Some days I remember her..her smell...her laugh. Then days with nothing. I don't want to be with her..I think its just a -grass is greener- thing. Anyway, I have it made yet I'm secretly depressed and a closet addict. Just wanted to say it..or type it..out loud so someone else could know.