All my life my father has been an alcoholic. i honestly truly believe that i hate him. i feel so bad for my mom because she fell in love and married that man. I don't understand why he is like this. My mom is on so much debt because of him and his drinking. he doesn't care about his family, that is why i hate him the most. He abuses us verbally and I can't stop but believe that I am what he says I am. Everyday, i have this small hope that he would come home sober, and I'm disappointed everyday. Just wanted to let this all out. thank you to whoever made this site.