I hate my life and have no clue why I haven’t ended it yet. I’m stuck in grad school indefinitely and getting nothing out of it at all, I’m starving from low wages, both of my parents are having very severe health issues, I don’t have friends I can talk to, one of my roommates is crazy and hostile to me constantly, I had been severely overworked the past year to the point that I would regularly go several days without sleeping and was eventually hospitalized, and I don’t know what I’m going to do with my life. I could go on for hours- my advisor has barely helped me with anything since I joined the program half a decade ago, my sister is relapsing into extreme behavioral issues she had as a child, the crazy roommate is gossiping about me around my department… I have no direction and can’t foresee any future for myself, I’m always panicking, and I feel like the only thing keeping me from killing myself is the thought of it impacting my family and partner