i still love colb . I am being bullied to say otherwise. which isn't helping my situation with this other loser who raped me who I keep saying no to and mean it , where as with colb I feel bullied to say no or I don't like him when its far from the truth. I just don't want to be the one hated for ruining his life cuz I am a sexual abuse victim and no one ever wanted more for me then ugly rape. and I am sick of it. this guy who did rape me wants to control my world. I dont feel its fair. I want colb . what can I do?