An anonymous e-admission by an unregistered user.
i have been attracted to gay sex when i was an unbeliever and still now as a Christian i sometimes have that kind of thoughts. i watched some horrible porn as an unbeliever all kinds of filthyness etc, even stuff where people eat feces etc. disgusting stuff. i don't watch porn anymore.
i've heard masturbation without lusting after anyone like real people is a safe way to deal with sexual urges and is a valid tool for sexual control and it works really but you gotta be careful not to lust at any pictures or people you might have seen or even saw during doing it etc.
and imaginary people is ok, just keep it faceless, no identities.
i want to overcome this.
thanks for reading and Love.