I am a sophmore in highschool. My anxiety is getting worse and I think I'm developing depression. I see everyone in school around me dating, having sex, doing drugs. I want to do all off things but I'm afraid of disappointing my mom. I've already done edibles and it makes me sick thinking that I betrayed my mom's trust like that. But, I still want to do reckless things that I know are bad for me just so I can feel something, thrill, excitement, happiness.