I hate my life. I hate myself. This weekend has been such a drag. I want someone to put a gun to my head and blow my brains out. I'm not strong enough to do it to myself. My bf broke up with me last night and I feel so guilty. I feel so bad. I want more than anything right now to be held. I cried all day and night. On top of that, I am ill with a cold. My life is so bad. I just wish someone would put me out of my misery. There is a chance I may be pregnant. Goodness, I hope not. I would make for a terrible mother. I don't need the stress. I just want to die. I am so sad. Why do I have to suffer? Why am I not good enough to be my ex's gf? Why can't I be loved? Why can't I be accepted for once in my life? Why am I such a screw up? I wish I was never born. Honestly. There's never been anything worthwhile in my life.

sometimes i hurt myself with out thinking about it. and soetimes i think about hurting other people, but i never do, atleast physically, i break their hearts for fun and i feel nothing. i dont know if that makes me a bad person or not.

I had an amazing boyfriend. He had to leave for a time.. I couldn't talk to him in any way shape or form, or see him, absolutely nothing for months and months.. The times we did made me feel guilty and added to my list of sins. Anyway.. In a moment of weakness.. I cheated. with my best friend.. It was completely unintentional the first time.. I never ever thought something would happen between him and I. But after it happened.. I couldn't stop. I've betrayed him and everyone else and everything I believe in. I've failed. I broke up with him.. And I'm letting go of my best friend as well.. I wish I could turn back time and I regret making that mistake the first time.. But now it's too late.. Forgiveness is impossible.. And I've lost the only man I ever really felt love for.. All because I was weak.. And he wasn't there when I most needed someone to be there..

says:zambia is my country and my home land,Male aged 26 years.currently am hoilng DIPLOMA IN GENERAL NURSING, CERTIFICATE IN HIV/AIDS COUNSELING,TESTING AND CARE, CERTIFICATE IN DIAGNOSTIC,COUNSELING AND CARE, CERTIFICATE IN PREVENTION OF MOTHER TO CHILD TRANSMISSION OF HIV/AIDS, CERTICATE IN MANAGEMENT OF TUBERCULOSIS UNSING REVISED WHO MODULES.I was born in a rural part of Zambia ,and am still working in a rural part of zambia,because am concerned and like to provide my service in those areas.I graduated in 2007 /BEST practical nurse, most of my intake mates have left zambia for greener pasture but me i want to continue my community who are in need. Zambia particularly is facing alot of problem in terms of human resource in the health sector because at the moment we only have one public university offering this training(GOVERNMENT SPONSORED).and the competition is too high especially for the same programme. Right now where am working we only have one medical Dr catering for 150,000 population, hence it has continued paining me and also making uncomfortable to see the workload and the number of paitients being unsatisfied/.My dream is to pursue medicine eithe Dr of MEDICINE or Dr of DENTISTRY.But am failing to meet my dream because looking at what am getting is too low (less than 400 us dollars per month) .Because i have to pay for my rentals above 120 us dollars,looking after my dependants and other necessity.Right now ihave been offered a place at Lusaka Apex Medical University to pursue BSC Nursing/ In Ugand at Ugand Christian University to pursue the same programme (BSC Nursing),because of financially handcapped am unable to take up those opportunities.Am the person who want to study hard for the benefit of my poor community . kindly anyone/ individual, organization,harvad university and to whom it may concern prove yourself by awarding me only scholarship to enable me pursue medicine(TUTION FEES,ACCOMODATION,AIR TICKET AND MEAL),I DONT NEED LUXURY THINGS (BUT ONLY EDUCATION).INVEST YOUR RESOURCES IN EDUCTION TO RESPONSIBLE PEOPLE .

I've hated myself for years. I've been depressed for years. I've always managed to make it through my depression. I am on the verge of giving up. I wish I had the balls to ask for a medication or something. If only I could be happy again....

I have been married for half a year to my highschool sweetheart and moved for him from Europe to America. But lately all I can think of is the relationship with a coworker I had. He broke up with me although everything was good between us, because he thought that I was amazing and he was not a good-enough man to be with me and that I deserved better. I have no way of contacting him but I just can not let him go. I am absoluty desperate because I miss him and feel guilty cause of my husband.

ever since my mother sent me to a group home about 5 months ago I haven't enjoyed life as much. I got out and I have my own apartment but since I got out I've been more impatient angier and less sincere. I wish I never had gone I really wanna go back to the person I was before I left but honestly I don't know how

I've fallen so hard for a wonderful friend I've made recently, but I'm really not sure whether I should tell or not. My heart says 'yes', but my brain isn't sure they actually feel the same way I do. I'm so scared of losing my friend by professing my feelings. What do I do?