I think I'm actually okay for once. I don't need him .. or him. I'm just fine with being just friends with them. Atleast for now.

i was raped my freshman year in high school. i thought he was going to kill me. my parents always tell me how proud they are of me for being able to handle it so well and for being so strong. im not strong. i developed a prescription drug addiction just to numb the pain, fear, and humiliation. i want to tell them so badly, but i cant stand letting them down. im supposed to be the good kid and im terrified it will shatter them if they ever found out. im not sure how much longer i can pretend im okay.

Im in love with a man that has children older than i am. Ive known him my whole life and have been in love with him for as long as i can remember. Last year, on my nineteenth birthday he told me that he thinks of me as his own daughter. This broke my heart so much that i couldn't stop crying, he took them as tears of joy. Ever since then, hes been calling me his -princess-. I avoided him in the weeks that followed and he confronted me about it. I broke down and fessed my love for him. He's been avoiding me ever since. Ive recently been diagnosed with a potentially life- threatening disease, i wish i could tell him, but i cant. Everytime i try to, he makes up an excuse to leave. If i could have one wish, it wouldn't be to rid myself of this disease, it would be to go back in time and make sure i had never told him how i feel.

I'm finding it hard to act normal and be myself, because the guy I'm falling for keeps going back and forth between me and his ex (who is one of my bestfriends)

i made a very big mistake. I kissed another man even though i was married with kids. I then admitted it to my ex husband even though i'd never do it again. I respect him too much to live a lie, he deserved the truth. He left me. I cry myself to sleep every night. I sleep with different guys just to not think about him. But then i do. And i cry again. I miss him and love him so much. I wish he would have forgave me.

i went to town with my younger sisters best friend yesterday.. She's not talking to me and she's really upset.. I'm angry at myself because i should have known better.. But the thing is i'v said sorry but she's still not talking to me, and i'm really upset because i dont trust anyone more than her in my life and i love her so much.. I'm truly sorry. I hope she'll forgive me =( she's my best friend and i love her =(

I found my cheating, lying, dead beat ex gfs ad on craigslist in the women seeking women section the other day... since then I've created a fake email account with fake pictures and we've been emailing each other for a few days. I'm planning on exchanging nude pics with her, not rly me of course. Eventually I hope to convince her to fly out to see me because my job forced me to move to a neighboring state. She'll fly out and be confused and hurt when she realizes -Carla- won't be picking her up. Her nude pics will be posted on a few websites and she'll know how it feels to be betrayed by someone she trusted ;-) Never underestimate the cruelty of a broken-hearted, betrayed girl.

Tonight I got in from work at about nine thirty pm, I really needed to pee I told my husband I'd talk in a minute but I was desperate, I ran up the stairs to the bathroom but when I got through the door I realised it was too late, I was pissing myself! I hurredly undressed and cleaned myself up and put all m clothes in the wash, luckily my husband didn't question why I had to put my pyjamas on so early. I couldn't tell him what had happene and I can't tell anyone, except you, I have never wet myself before, I have watched watersports porn on the net and thought i'd like to try it sometime, but after my accident I can catagoricaly say that it's embarrasing and humiliating, what if I had happened while still at work?