I can't stop lying...I don't know if I know why I lie or not...I think I may lie to get attention...or to spite people or to make it seem like I know more than I do...I kind of wish I could stop and kinda don't....I feel like lies make things more interesting...maybe they do...I feel like sometimes I can hide in lies that only I know I've told, bask in them...I feel most comfortable when I'm lying but at the same time I feel antsy...When I tell the truth about something I know I could have easily woven into a masterpiece I feel like shit....much like I imagine normal people feel when they don't tell the truth bout something...I once tried to go a whole day with out a lie and after 3 failed attempts I finally refused to talk to anyone that day....SEE THAT WAS A LIE! I don't know why I do it...

I'm 15 years old. I've been alone most of my life. I didn't meet my dad until just last year. My mom was to busy working trying to support us to pay me much mind and left me alone for hours as soon as I was old enough to work a phone. I have no siblings and had no close friends until I was 12. I was an extremely lonely child who it seemed like every other child hated because I used to big of words and I myself am overweight. I know the worst horrors of being alone without anyone close. I filled up my emptiness with food. Now I have friends. Good close friends and they tell me everything when they are feeling bad. My first friend stopped talking to me because I told him things so now I can't tell people what is wrong when they ask. I fill my sadness with lust now, a lot of it. All I ever wanted was to be held and comforted as I cry all the loneliness out...all I ever got was -I didn't come here to talk....I heard you were good...how about you show me?- so out of spite for myself, I do.

I opened a email account in my wifes ex-boyfriends name and sent her a email after supposedly no contact of 17 years. I couldn't tell you why. I emailed back and forth with her (as him) for 3 months and found out many, many juicy details of their two year relationship. I found out that she had contact him and vise-versa several times over the years without me knowing. I found out she had kissed him when we were engaged and that she had 3 orgasmic dreams about him in the 17 year since she had seen him last. I got her to reveal sexual fantasies that she had never told me and reaped the rewards of her being extremely horny during that time. Knowing further contact was unsustainable, I used a video camera on the desk to gain her email password, then told her I had been suspicious of the time she was spending on the computer, had guessed her password and found all the emails that she had been trading with him. She said she was sorry but continues to email him (me.) Twisted I know.

I'm a jerk. I'm in love with my best friend (I'm a girl/ he's a guy). Or at least I think I am. I've been having issues with my current boyfriend for a while and am not sure how to end it or if I should.

Every time a boy comes into my life, I just tend to push him away. And I'm TIRED of doing that. I just tend to get so picky sometimes that I end up getting nothing at all. It sucks, really. Now, my best friend keeps on telling me that I need to hook up with some guy 'cause, well, I'm already 19 years old and I haven't even had a boyfriend. Several boys have actually shown some interest (some of them actually risked a lot just to show me that they're serious) but like I said, I just don't let them in, you know? If I keep up with this, I'm gonna end up being an old maid! WHICH I REALLY DON'T WANT TO HAPPEN. LOL. So, I guess I'm gonna have to change, right? I should be more... open, this time.

I'm a good person and have done the best I can in life considering my circumstances. However I have certainly made my fair share of mistakes. There are several people I wish to express sincere appology and regret to; for the mistakes I have made and for the grudges and bitterness I have harboured collectively towards them. I have allowed myself to go through life angry and hurt, with a total chip on my shoulder towards people from my past. A past that, although far from horrible, leaves much to be desired. There have been serveral people in my life who have tried to extend civility and gestures of friendship, somtimes repeadedly, over the years that I have habitually refused. To those people, I am sorry. I simply wasn't at a place in life where I could accept it. And to those people whom I have hurt or offended for no reason other than bitterness, and misunderstanding, I am sorry for that, too. This won't change anything, but it an effort.

I have a tiny penis and i get off on women mocking it. This infatuation developed when i was younger when a friend of my mother's visited us. It was like the scene in Seinfeld. I was changing in my room and she came to say hi. I was changing and was naked and instead of excusing herself, she looked at my small cock and laughed. She then said that my dick was small and hope that it will get bigger as I get older. Unfortunately that never happened and I am still hooked since on having my girlfriends tell me how small I am.

i'm 25, married for 18 months. Me and my wife started trying for a baby and were successful pretty much straight away everything is going fine. Then for some reason i changed my mind, i don't want to be a father now although it is way too late for that. I am so anxious about it, people look at me and talk to me differently to how they did before. I think we are too young. to make it worse i met this girl(there is always a girl) she is 7 years older than me and married also. We haven't done anything but she told me she wants to and for the first time in the ten years i have been with my wife i am tempted. I am such a terrible person.