I think I'm falling for one of my 2 best friends

I'm in a weird relationship with a boy that I fully believe I love with all of my heart, and I know he loves me. There's another girl, his ex-girlfriend, who keeps popping up and occasionally he takes her back and leaves me heartbroken. He's done this a number of times and every time I swear I won't take him back, but I do. Every time. I can't survive without him, it hurts too much. I don't know what to do.

sometimes i hope that i will get sick just so people will pay attention to me

Information in the wrong hands can ruin someone. My hands are the wrong hands. I'll ruin him & there's nothing he can do about it.

My mother told me a while ago that she loves me, but she doesn't like me. A lot of people have said a lot of hurtful things to me, but I still cry myself to sleep each night wondering what I did to make my own mother dislike me. As a result of those words, I distanced myself from her emotionally. She doesn't know that I'm beginning hate myself, she doesn't know that I'm drowning, she can't tell that I need help. She's the only person I want to talk to about all the shit that has taken over my life. But I'm afraid to confide in her, what if I make her dislike me even more? What if she stops loving me completely?

Somthing funny happened... On july23morning while I was going 2 my office i saw a gal on bus.. she had a amazing pair of black eyes.. and she was damn beautiful.. we had a few sharp eye-contact. But now i cannot forget her now... her memory is still hunting me.. Now I'm praying 2 GOD (although I doubt his existence) 2 meet that gal again.. so that i can confess my felling... Before that i confess that to u - I'm Fallen in Her... HA HA thats crazy..

I cheated on my boyfriend with this guy, now the guy I cheated with is falling for me and I'm falling for his best friend..

If I had things to do over, I wouldn't have married you.