I sit up at night all alone & cry. You don't really care. I've spent so much time doing this it seems like an eternity, that my life has always been like this. But it's only been a few years. A few years of hell that you caused. How you'd reject me & walk away. Ignore me for months then suddenly say you love me. You're about as f*cked up as they come If you had you never would have done the things you did & you would have made an effort to resolve things. So I sit for hours with nothing to do but hurt. and wait. and hope that maybe I'm wrong. That maybe you care & you feel how much you've hurt me. And for once, you make real amends. you treat me decently. but I know you won't. your latest rejection crushed me. You told me you loved me but replaced me with that ugly bitch you said was gone. Just another of your many lies. You can't even imagine how much you've hurt me. All you care about is yourself. I want off your sick merry go round. I want to leave your house of mirrors

I have been away from my girlfriend for a month, now. Today, i sought sex with another woman and even offered her money but luckily, I was chided by this women and was asked to behave myself and this woman is one my family has known for a long time. Now, I am ashamed of myself for doing this and basically what hurts me most is that I've cheated my girlfriend who trusts me so much. I just want to get this of my heart and I know i could never tell this to her and so I offer her my sorry through this. I am sorry my dear. I love you.

When my parent tells me they have nothing to live for but me and that they want to kill themselves, I don't fear it. And although I make pathetic -attempts- to talk them -out of it-, I really want to say JUST GO AHEAD AND FUCKING DO IT THEN! I know I am horrible for thinking this, but I am so tired of picking up all the peices everytime and pretending that I am the responsible patient loving good person for everyone. Even though all of my family members have no contact with the parent anymore, I feel like I have to because it is -the right thing to do-. But I really have to force myself to call and force myself to answer in politically correct ways. It is horrible but I don't want to yet again make everyone else's life easier while mine continues to suck! Anyone else out there who agrees, people who have has mental and physical illnesses who hate life maybe just should get it over with?!

HOW STUPID ARE YOU? Did you really expect me to put up with your garbage? You're a mean controlling JERK. You think everything has to be done your way. Wake up! How would you like to have someone telling you what to do? Then why is it okay for you to do it. It's miserable being with you. I'm done. Really done. You made sure there was nothing left between us. I deserve something better than what you offer. You're history- a mistake I made.

My life is completely controlled by fear. I don't think about or try to solve my problems because I am afraid they will exist. The ones that do exist eat away at me, but I am afraid to face them out of shame. They have stunted the growth of my life and are preventing me from building a future. I find it easier to focus on other things instead of fixing them, part of me would rather die than fix them. I can go on living in a hole and it feels like I can't crawl out. I blame life and not myself. I hate life and I hate myself.

I recently had to start my life over again. New town, new home. It's been a struggle, but when I talk to my parents on the phone I pretend everything is ok, that I'm happy and that I haven't lost weight because in order to afford a roof over my head I sometimes can't eat...

I’m married. I’m having an emotional affair. With a guy who is married. And whose wife just gave birth to their baby. And the only thing that makes me feel bad is that it’s not yet a physical affair.

I have a problem cheating. I've been with my husband for about 9 years now. I never started cheating until I found out he did it first, more than once and with more than one other woman. We stayed together and decided to work things out and I do love him. I just can't stop cheating on him now. I have about 5 other guys that I talk to and meet up with from time to time. Now I'm thinking about a threesome with one of the guys and his buddy. I just don't know what to do.