so, we dated three times and every time i broke it off because it felt weird. Yet, if i would have just talked to you about things i think we could have spent the rest of our lives together. We meshed so well that I'm sure we were made for each other. But, we decided to be done dating and now that I'm dating someone else I still think that we could be perfect together. Now I spend some nights wondering if I have just passed up the greatest thing in my life.

I cry because I hate myself and life. My stupid parents won't leave me alone, so I make stupid excuses. I've wanted to kill myself since I was 11. No one I know understands me. If I tell my stupid parents they'll just put me in some mental institution. Who cares, my life is already living hell, though.

I fell in love when i was already in a relationship. I did my best to be a good friend to the one i couldnt have, and be a good boyfriend to the one i was with. It all went to hell. The sad part is, i accomplished both. I was a great friend, and i was a good boyfriend, and got both my head and heart straight. but the friendship went to crap anyways due to things that dont even involve me, and my relationship is slowly dying due to outside influences. So all the sacrifice and effort was apparently for nothing. It hurts real bad, knowing everything is failing. It sucks knowing that i held everything up when everyone else failed, so i lose anyways. I was sick and hospitalized a few times, even unable to eat. i still stayed the bigger man, dealing with and facing my feelings until they became manageable, and what each deserved. but my friend didnt. and now the girlfriend wont fight in the slightest to keep me, even with my support. after all this, i dont have any real love. Crap.

this weekend, he took me from feeling ugly, lonely and worthless to feeling for the first time in my life that someone liked me and since then i haven't been able to do anything but think of him. it's making me depressed that i am not with him on his bed kissing him right now. i have never felt the way i did when he touched me in my entire life and i cannot help but desire to feel that again immediately. he went away yesterday back to his hometown for thanksgiving. it makes me nervous to wonder if he will come back to talk today or if it was really all just a dream.

i lied to you and said i was over you. i hated everybody else that came closer to you than i ever did.....every time i' said hello i was trying to scream out -i love you-. i had my chance and i lost it. i hate what i've become.

Dear Mariah, I swear that you didn't have to go. I thought we could have lasted forever. I treated you like royalty. I loved you with everything I had inside of me. And you cheated on me with someone who will go nowhere. You Left me on valentines day. You abandoned our dog. You abandoned me. You broke my heart. It has been over six months and I cannot believe that I still love you. I would still die for you, kill for you, anything you would have liked from me. I might have been the best thing for you. But who knows. The number of people you have slept with since you left is terrifying. But somehow I still want you. I want you to love me like I'll always love you. People look at me, and can't understand why I love you at all, You're terrible to me. And Taylor, she can never have the real Lexington because you have ruined me. You have ruined any chance I'll have of being in love again. Fuck you for that. Fuck you for breaking me. I'll always love you, and I hate you for everything.

I really despise Erik. He lies all the time. About anything & everything. You just can't believe what comes out of his mouth cause he could be lying. Good old Prolificman is only good at lying. It's time he tosses those stupid lizard skin boots- he's never going to be a rock star. I doubt Taylor made ever existed except in his damaged little brain. ET has no real musical talent. As for being thumper7ndahalf- only in his dreams. What a LIAR he is! I HATE driving in Sunnyvale now- knowing he's there makes me sick.

lazy+stupid+dumb+ignorant+self centred+ugly= -Goldfarb- the USELESS HOUSEMATE

-Teach me how to make scramble eggs!--she ended eating up my breakfast.

-how do you iron this shirt?*hands over her bf's shirt and iron*-i ended ironing her bf's shirt

-Why is there traffic jam here?owh yea....Theres Olympics at the stadium today!--Olympics is in China.WE ARE SO NOT IN CHINA!

Dear Stuupid house mate-I can't take you cause you're such a self centred parasite.

I guess you got it from your mom.yes.the non working, 2nd wife whos dependant on her husband's money even if he cheats on her almost all the time.DUH-She doesn't even cook!

BTW-your foundation is SO THICK,-I can bury my ancestors in it!!!