I don't feel too right. Me and my ex have talked on/off this week, and for an autistic suicidal, he's doing worryingly better than me. Did screw with my head though that he suggest a -meaningless fuck- twice and I think I would, purely because I'm so emotionally empty, and crave making him happy again. He's all I care about. I even had confided in him that a 29 year old has taken a worrying interest (considering I'm 16) in me, and is trying to be pushy about sex. I didn't even give a toss when my mom made me move out, cause she's getting married and doesn't need me anymore. I feel dirty and worthless. Everyone I try to love leaves me, and I don't stop thinking about him. It's got to a point of depression, frequent nightmares, daily crying/breakdowns, near-insomnia, obsessive behaviour, etc. I don't know what to do. Suicide seems logical, but if someone did care, I'd be as bad as my mother or ex. Though he's perfect. I miss him. I hate myself for everything I'm not to him

I’m having an affair with an extremely attractive, highly intelligent (Bio-Chem/ES&P double major) married classmate I met at school and I've been in a stable, loving relationship for over 12 years myself. We had sex in an empty movie theater two days ago and it was amazing. He makes me feel highly desirable and passionate in a way that I haven't felt in a really long time. I don't want him as my "own", and v/v, but my god, the encounters we've had so far, 3 total - 2 makeout + oral sex sessions & the movie theater, full on sex situation, have been absolutely intoxicating and I want more.

I'm scared to death to go to college. I've been snapping at anybody that has been trying to talk about it. I'm hoping that they'll just leave me alone and I can go to pieces without them looking.

Im loosing my sanity because of my job. I'm sitting in my cubicle right now digging my nails into my skin and crying speratically. I dont know what to do. Without this job i wont have a home. With it i go nuts.

I'm kind of obsessed with this cute asian guy online. He used to talk to me every now and then, and we really have a lot in common. Now suddenly, he reads my emails but doesn't respond. I want to meet him and see if things click, but now I feel like I'm being blown off. It's hard to tell because he doesn't get online very often and because of the possible cultural differences. Am I being too aggressive? All I really do is joke and make small talk. He doesn't even respond to THAT anymore. Should I ask him if we can meet and hang out, or should I give up? His profile still says he's single. I'm not sure why, but I'm just uncontrollably attracted to him.

I think I'm in love and it scares the hell outta me. Last night we kissed and i told her i saw fireworks. i did. She told me a secret a huge one. One that would make most men kick a girl out of his bed. You know what i did? I told her i didn't care, i told her i loved her. Then i kissed her; she sobbed. Last night the world, my world was in complete arrest. Alchohol didn't put words in my mouth, it just gave me the blind courage to say them. She said God could have sent me to her. Its a beautiful thing to be called a blessing. Honest to God i have no idea what our chances of ending up together are, and that scares me. Is this love? Is this what it feels like?

I caught my boyfriend cheating on me with a guy..he said that he got lonely and that the guy he was with just understood him...he promised that he would never do it again but i found out that he did with another guy. i found this out when i came over to his house and found them both naked on the couch in doggy position. I screamed at my boyfriend but then later on got kinda turned on. I told him that i would forgive him if i could watch them getting it on.... at first he didnt want to but later on agreed..they started out kissing and from then on it led to other things..i was so turned on that i joined in and it was the best time of my life...me and my boyfriend are still together and often participate in group sex...my boyfriend promised me that he is not gay but sometimes i wonder....

I love Paris Hilton!!!!