i got paid off again on friday, i'm tired i'm sore i aint got much left in me!. i'm half as strong as i used to be but i want to use my leftover strength to hurt others who deserve it.. my stomach and kidneys hurt but if christ can see his way past to allow my last breath to reek vengence i'd appreciate it. 3 years ago i was left in a foreign city as a migrant worker, the boss drove off after telling me i was paid off. he did this by winding down his window and shouting it as he sped off. i'm anything but a bastard! i'm a good person but i want to go to town! know what i mean? i could sure as hell use some kinds words right now cuz somebodys going to get the blunt end of my fist. i can bench press 200kg

i know this is going to sound pathetic, but id give anything to be with you again. even though i did nothing wrong, im sorry for not trying hard enough....i hate it when you say youre not worhty of me. why cant you let me be the judge of that? id kill to have you with me. youre the only person i have ever forgiven in my life....doesnt that mean something? i dont ask for much. just a phone call. friends still call eachother...its ok if im not good enough for you, if thats the case (which i think it is) cut the bullshit and tell me. im dying here. i fell for you. i cant help myself. i love you. plain and simple.

I've been dating this guy for almost 2 months. We were friends before for about 2 months. I like him a lot. A few days ago though, I almost made a big mistake, and made out with one of my friends. I didnt, but I still feel bad for even thinking about doing that. I just dont want something to actually happen with that one friend...

I pick fights at dinner just so I can storm off and throw out my food so I don't have to eat it. This is the fifth night in a row. I hate food.

I am at a strange place in my life at the moment. I hate commitment (not sure why, I don't think it's because I'm scared of it...maybe it is, who knows) and I don't know if I ever want marriage. But the thing about it is that I really miss being in love, but if I hate commitment and refuse marriage, what is the point of even dating someone anyway? I met this wonderful girl the other day who works by me, I managed to muster up the courage and talk to her (and ask her out), but what is the point if all I'm going to eventually do is break her heart? But god, do I miss being in love...

I falll in love with a gal, at first she told me that she dont have a boyfrien, but then when i propose to her, she told me she got 1 n she really got 1. I cant accept that n i'm madly fall in love wif her, now i'm trying to control myself not to love her. This bloody love thing is inside me for more than 1 year n no 1 knows, I have been caring it without leting any1 know about it and i dont know what the fuck to do. Its quite difficult for me to look for another gal since i'm deeply fall for her. Damm, am i mute to confess online. What the fcuk. I have choosen these path and i don find any other alternative path to correct my life. Cant stand of ppl being together very closely, even in tv's. I know i need some 1 to understand n love me forever but i cant find any true soul ard. Everyone is moving ard with fake beauty even me also do it sumtimesbut i dunno y am i doing it. I cant stand with those ard moving with fake beauty. Whats the point, be u are ppl might love u even more.

I am relationship inept. I am afraid of them. I can’t hold onto one. I can’t find someone I like.. or who I think will like me I hate it when people ask me if I have a boyfriend because I am self-conscious about being single I pretend to LOVE being single but I really hate it- a lot I am extremely negative, and look at people in negative ways I’m not nice very often to those closest to me I am nicer to those I don’t know well (colleagues, peers) I am not patient My parents don’t like me very much, rightfully so I feel alone in life, even when I’m surrounded by people I had high hopes for myself but don’t see myself succeeding Now that I am at where I wanted to be.. I am not satisfied with it and it’s very discouraging I don’t know if this is what I was meant to be doing with my life I don’t think anyone would ever understand me I’m weird. I used to pretend to be happy for people… now I don’t even do that, instead I make rude remarks The only things I really like are my dog.. and my rabbit. I often wish I could die in some tragic accident so people would miss me I often wish I would die so my parents would feel guilty and miss me I am often misunderstood because I act angry when I am really sad and or hurting I am extremely reclusive.. and I like it that way I’m happiest when I am by myself I like to be away from people for long periods of time so they don’t know what is going on in my life I really don’t like people all that much The worst part… I fake being a happy person pretty damn well. If they only knew.

When I was little, mom always asked me to wash my hands but i never did.. But when my father said "Son, the soap is dirty, wash the soap please", i washed the soap everytime... What a fool I was ...