Even after all the things he said to trick me, and all the things she did to try to scare me, and all the things I did that made me look like a fool.. I still really miss him, and I wish that for one day I could just talk to him again and say everything I think and tell him to have a good life with his unconquerable Kitten. I've been having a hard time with this for a while and I need to get it finished up. Thank you, B., for what you taught me, and for what you lied to me about, because in the end it was a pretty valuable lesson in trusting people. I hope all is well and that you do nicely in college or whatever you plan on doing.

I'd think I was sick unless I knew that the reason I feel so nauseous is the prospect of a date with you. My nerves are going to make me use up all of my pepto-bismol.

i am not a jelous person by nature at all. But recentley my best friend has just been getting everything that she desires and it is really pissing me off.She is like so perfect and i hate these feelings of envy because their so new to me. I can't help it but i DO NOT feel happy for her in the least bit and i wish that all the excitment was happening to me NOT HER! And i just cant help it but want to be rude and i just hate this i dont want to be jelous, i really dont but i cant help it!!! :,[

I should floss more and take better care of my teeth....but I don't. I think it's because secretly, I'm down on myself and have low self-esteem... despite the fact that I really shouldn't feel that way... some sort of bizarre tooth decay pscho-rebellion... it surprises me.

My ex-boyfriend, whom I never cared for in the slightest, and my current boyfriend, whom I love from the bottom of my heart, are both in a class of mine. They worked together, side by side, while I was on the other side of the room. As I looked at them from the distance, I saw their faces profiled, one against the other. The one face was light, and of understanding, while the other was dark and immature. My body ached in wonder as I realized how mentally different two similarly physical people could be. One being my protector, the other being one I once had to protect. I wanted to laugh and cry at the disparity of my past, and my present and future.

I don't want this life- I want something better. I'm too smart and have too much passion to have the life I have. I try and try and try to change it but it seems I always fall short. Is it going to get better? I can't tell. I'm trying to stay happy and upbeat but it just gets harder all the time. I pray to God to help but...I think about giving up but then I don't. But then nothing changes.I hate the cycle. I'm sick of it- and I'm angry because I've been through so much that I feel like a college graduate in kindergarten. I know I can handle more. I want to fly like an eagle but I'm stuck in a life that doesn't let you do much more than color with broken crayons and cut with safety scissors. Is it going to get better? That's all I want to know. If not, do I HAVE to hang around? Cuz if not, I'd rather not.

i love my missus very much, but lately she has been getting onto me about my drinking habits. yes i do drink a fair amount. but before we even got together and made a go of it i told her i like to drink and she was cool with it. but shes been doing my head in. i cant take much more of it, i'm thinking of leaving her even though i have nowhere to go i've always taken to the road when things got tough. shes a real miserable cow at the minute and i'm fuckin sick of it. she has no idea what i gave up for her and what i lost in the process. i used to have money and a secure job. now i have fuck all, my wages go into her bank account.

Yesterday I went crazy on 5th Avenue in New York City Manhattan cursing God, his prophets, and, people out. If you find it in your heart also forgive what I have done in 1986A.D., 1992A.D., 1993A.D., 1996A.D., 1997A.D. 1998A.D., 2006A.D, and, 2007A.D., yesterday morning on 5th Avenue in New York City Manhattan. 1986A.D. - Punching a girl in the chest. 1992A.D. - Chasing a girl with a pin. 1993A.D. - Jealous of a student of the month 1996A.D. - Bullying a kid to death 1997A.D. - Cruelty to Princess Diana and Mother Teresa 1998A.D. - Carelessness towards a little girl left off the school bus and walked home by an older girl. 2006A.D. - Going crazy over sex. 2007A.D. - Cursing innocent people and God's prophets. Please forgive me Father God, for I have sinned against you badly. In Jesus' name. Amen. Amen. Amen. Amen. Amen. Amen. Amen. Amen. Sincerely, yours Mikhail Fine P.S. I'm sorry Father God for what I have done against you. Amen.