22 male. never been in a long term relationship, and am terrified of women. i noticed today that i cannot even masturbate to real women. it starts out fine, but the ramifications of what it would mean start to hit me and i lose my erection. i cannot even cum thinking about past sex. i am terrified of what i am becoming and see no way to change it. i went to australlia for the whores and i plan to do it again soon. its pretty sad that i have to fly 5000 miles away for sex.

One of my best friends boyfriends is also one of my bestfriends and she relly likes him,but so do i. and the problem is is that he kinda doesnt like her ne mre, and last nite we made out in the bathroom. i felt horrible and i dont know if i should tell her,if he should tell her, or if we should keep it a secret. but she is a relly nice person and an awesome best friend. i just dont know wht to do ne mre.

what should i say to love that i havent said to you a thousand times before. i love you ,i truly love you , but. i dont know if in my heart if i have ever completely forgiven you for cheating on me. sometimes i think to myself i should pay you back, but i know i would never do that. i would never hurt you and destroy you in that manner. yes you have destroyed a part of me. god how i wish it could go back the way it was before. i know time has passed and i should have forgiven you completely ,but the thought of you touching someone other then me sickens me and hearing you say you didnt love still rattles in my brain. i guess i always thought our love was untouchable and for many years it was. now i dont know what do to.i feel like im hiding someone thing but not telling you how i feel. but i dont want to hurt you by bring it up. i know you love me but i wish i could feel it again. if there is anyone who can help me with this it would be great . i dont know what to do.

my best friend and i went out in the middle of the year for like a week cuz he didnt hug me or kiss me or anything. so i broke up with him three days after we went out and then he got jealous about two weeks after we broke up and he told me tht he wanted to go bak out again so we did for lke five days, and he did the sme thing to me. he relly hurt me but we're still best freinds to this day and i still have real strong feelings for him and i always think he does too, and i dont know if i should tell him that i still have feelings for him or just let him go out with my best friends! he makes me feel wanted wen im around him and he always flirts with me i just dont know wht to do!!!

When I was still dating him, my boyfriend would ask me if I loved him. Every time I would tell him yes. He would then ask if I was being truthful and I would still say yes. But everytime he asked, I always knew that my answer was a lie. The truth is that I never even remotely liked him as a person. We didn't share even the smallest thing in common, I don't see how he could ever think that I loved him. I hope he doesn't wonder now why I never miss him, or that the only thing I do miss is being in a steady relationship

I can't be strong for him. I can't silence the paranoia; the thoughts that he's kissing another girl. that's what distance does to me. he doesn't reassure me, but I'm not sure he knows the way I feel. I want to tell him.. but I'm not sure he'd understand. he seems so young at heart, though he is older than me. I wish he'd contact me more.. I wish he'd hold me. he flatters me. tells me I'm beautiful. but they're just words. he only seems to want me for one thing.. but maybe my vision's distorted. how can I tell him the reason I'm tainted? the words don't come easy.. I'm rendered speechless. I feel so lost..

why doesn't my dad want me? why can't I even be good enuogh for him to just stay in my life. What is he running from? God I hate you, I should have know that all of thoese promises that you made while you were in prosion were a joke! You left us!!! You dont deserve any of the money mom made off the house!! Mom could nickel and dime you with the child support if she wanted so stop calling her a greedy! YOU LEFT WHEN i WAS FOUR, do you know how many nights I cryed for you because you werent there. I oviously don't get why you don't love us enough to just be a farther. So go off with your fluzie I don't need you anymore, I'll take care of us, I'll take care of mom.

Well it is stranger what people can tell you when they don't know who you are. A classmate with whom i recently started chatting using an anonymous id just told me that 18 months ago a paper that fell out of my book and was read by nearly half of the gals in my class. This she told me without knowing that the person with whom she is talking is the same whom she is talking about. What was so special about the paper? Well it contained a written conversation( a cool yet dangerous way to pass time during boring lectures) between me and someother person discussing clothes different girls were wearing ( we didn't use their real names though). And she said it pissed her off a lot. Wow! see what "memos" can do?