He was my first love, i didn't want to believe that we could fail, but did we ever. I've known he wasn't right for me for over a year but i had already let him in. I was in too deep. So now i finally got the nerve to leave him. I did what i needed to do. It hurts. It hurts so damned much. For the life of me i can not understand how leaving a man who was completely incompatible with me, sent me in to spirals of depression, and walked on my dreams would tear me apart like this. Nights are the worst, they make me feel empty and alone. I cant sleep. I knew this was coming, i wanted it, i did it, i needed it, because it hurt so much to be with him. Well now i am not with him, why won't the hurt end?

im completely in love with this great guy....he has no idea....were only friends right now and have been for about a year....i told him i like him and he said he likes me too....but he said it when he was under the influence of a drug....i believe him...and he also said he was takin a year off of dating which is almost up...we spend alot of time together...he met my family and friends and ive met his dad some of his family and some of his friends...he spends time with me and my fam and my friends and i spend alot of time with him and his dad....i guess i jus wanna know even tho he was under the influence does it seem like he wants to be more then friends? i mean i cant tell cause hes jus so great to me....but to add to the equation we have sex too...and the sex for me is great..because i feel something there and even when we dont have sex and dont even really touch i feel something and one night he even admitted that there was something between us that we couldnt hide....

i've completely fallen in love with him. he knows i like him and he said he likes me too but he said it when he was doin a drug...idk if that matters or not....we spend alot of time together im gettin to know his dad and hes gettin to know my friends and family..he told me he was takin a year off of dating and well i know sometime soon his year will be up i guess i jus wanna know since hes puttin all this effort in to me and my life what it means....he has no idea i love him i mean hes a great man and everything about him turns me on and i can deal with all of his b.s. cause its not that bad....except maybe his drug of choice....which i choose to be ok with it cause thats who he was and wat he was doin when i met him...all i know is how i feel and im kind of lost and confused

i sleep with women and lie to them and tell them i like them and get them to like me, then i destroy their feelings. it happened to me, i hate women.

I am still madly in love with my first love even though I have been married to another man for 21 years. My first love was not the greatest guy but still, HE is the one and only true love of my life! I've often wonder if there are other people out there with this situation and if so, please share your thoughts, heartaches etc. The thought of bumping into my first love just makes me feel like I am melting...

I lost my virginity when I was 13. But I'm still so uncomfortable with My body that I wouldn't do half the Things my virgin friends would do. &+ I'm a size 4. It sounds selfish but I have this disorder called "Body Dysmorphic Disorder" (BDD) which Makes my brain magnify my flaws and kill my self esteem;; It hurts

So, second round was a LOT better, though it still hurt a little. We are slowly figuring out how to make it work. We did figure out that some of the pain could be because I have a skin allergy to latex, duh right? Should have thought of that sooner. But I did some research online and found some latex-free condoms. I picked some up the other day, but we haven't had time to try them out yet. I think maybe Sunday night we are going to go find the spot where we had our first kiss... yeah, corny I know, but he suggested it. It was way up in the mountains somewhere, we had just been riding around and around. (I remember that night so well. I was SO scared. He is the only guy I've ever kissed) He has a jeep, and according to him it's never been "broken in." Hum, a new one for me, sex in a jeep.... Anyone got any tips to make it go smoother? Anyway, thanks for listening to me babble. I have no one else to talk to...

I am only 14 but have watched a few gay porn short clips. I am not gay but was interested, I now feel so dirty.