I've never had any self confidence. My dad made sure of that during all my teen years by constantly ridiculing me in front of anyone who was around. I'm approaching 25 years in a marriage to the only woman who really seemed to need me, and I finally realised I needed to be needed not that I loved her at all. Now I feel like I've wasted most of my life. I've been head over heels in love with my massage therapist (yes, I've written in before) since the first second I caught a glimpse of her, but she's been VERY happily married to a guy who adores her for 15 years now. I never mention this in her prescence and will never tell her or my wife, but it's killing me slowly day after day. I've given up caring about my looks, gained 60 lbs., never go anywhere or see my friends anymore and have generally lost all interest in everything I once cared about. Every day I hope I'll die from a heart attack or cancer like both my parents. I wish I had the courage to end this but I'm a coward. I hate me.

Last night I started to drink and got drunk. At the sametime the guy I was going out with was sayin that we shouldn't be together and said that I don't know what love is. Who does?!? Then the same night I was talking to the guy that I want to be with. I made a comment and he got mad and told me somethin and I don't remember. Well now I have two guys mad at me. I don't know what I should do???

SWF 30yrs, Montreal, Canada. For once in my life I am going to be blatantly honest with what I want. I want to find a sexy dark skinned man with just the right build who will my prince charming, but yet will be as freaky as me in the bedroom. Are there any men like that out there? Any willing to accept 2 kids (who are not looking for a daddy, no worries...)? I am always attracked to the roughnecks, yet they just can't seem to walk the walk... (All I hear is talk, talk , talk...) I have a great personality, I am open minded, I'm good looking (meaty but not big), I know how to treat a man right and I know how to keep him happy... So why is it that only the loosers come around? Are all the good ones already taken?!

I live a life that most would be jealous to have yet I have squandered so much of my youth. I have a fantastic brain but I have done almost nothing with it. I have only recently begun to use my intelligence in a meaningful way but when I look back on my time in college I am filled with deep regret at all the things that I did not do.

6 years ago I dated a guy, ended up falling for him, after 6mths it ended, wasn't working, it was too intense. We kept in touch, stayed friends. Anyway I've always had a soft spot for him (probably because he was my first & haven't met any1 like him). He is a good friend & is there if I need him. It's really pathetic, its 6years later and I still have feelings for him. It’s not like I haven’t meet other guys, I have. Two and a half years ago I came on to him & we slept together once, when I broke up with my boyfriend. We both got on with our lives but now over the last 5 months stuff's been happening, he will flirt with me & I'll find it funny but hard to resist, we end up messing around & he tries to kiss me but i remember what Julia Roberts said in Pretty Woman, never kiss on the mouth, you'll start to have feelings; but the more i try to avoid It, the more he tries to kiss me. When we speak we pretend nothings happened. Does he know how i feel about him and is trying?

You tell me when I bring home the pay check good job, way to go! But each day I come home more and more exhausted you make me feel as though it was not good enough. Even when I work twice as many hours as you while I ran my health into the ground, and you were the one with me while I lay there in pain, exposed to the doctors, You still acted as though I was not pulling my end. Even after I did all I could and gave up everything I gained to help you, it is never good enough. You ask me and tell me to stop being so depressed. I am depressed because you want me to do jobs I dont want to. I dont wanna do this, but I will because I love you. I admit you frustrate me so much somedays I wish I wouldnt have done this!

to my online friend of two years, so basically what you're saying is that whenever you're feeling bad, I should disregard how i feel and try to cheer you up, but if I happen to feel like shit i should just shut up and pretend i'm fine so you can feel better. i'm sorry i'm your 'best friend'. maybe you should go out and meet real people instead of pissing your life away on the internet. you're coming over in summer and i'm dreading meeting you. i can't tell you this stuff because i don't want to hurt you. also it's easier not to start a fight.

soo...my boyfriend and i have been arguing on and off...like usual. but the other night, he mentioned something and i know he was implying marriage. when he gets back he's going to ask me to marry him. it's not just my imagination, he's been talking about it a lot. i don't know if i'm ready. i love him, but i told him a while ago that i don't think we should move in together for a while after he gets back, to get back in the swing of things. i love him but wow i'm so afraid.