everything I do (even this confession) is a way of distracting myself from working. I know that if I stay like this I will fail all my exams and have to leave my friends and girlfriend at university but I can't bring myself to sort things out, I just feel like it's already too late.

last month my ex-girlfriend asked me (totally out of the blue) if I ever thought about what could have happened if we'd stayed together, where we'd be, what we could be doing right now etc etc. This is a fairly bad time for her to start being flirty because my NEW girlfriend is going to come and visit in a couple of weeks and meet all of my friends, including (yes, you've guessed it) my ex. This is hideously awkward and my new girlfriend has no idea... yet.

I don't really trust anyone. i think trust is a ridiculous idea. everyone is going to screw you over some how at some point. i think you should always be expecting it that way you arent let down and you dont feel like a complete idiot for trusting them not to screw you over. i think people who trust others are naive and stupid and i want to smack them and tell them to stop living in a dream land.

my ex has been calling me and wants to get together, because his view is that my bf is gone anyway and i shouldn't have to wait for him, that its not fair for me...but i want to wait for my bf, but my ex...is just, i have a soft spot for him...so im so confused

I can't orgasam, unless I fantasize about women being raped, and I am a woman.

you win aaron i love you ill always love you and youll never love me youll use me and ill let you because i love you...i just wish that some day youll love me back but thats not likely :'(

I am so stupid. I unwittingly gave my name to a person online I was having a dispute with. It was so stupid. Then, in the process of trying to cancel a transaction with them, I probably gave them more information. Thank you ________ company, you idiots. I fucking hate that company. They made me feel the transaction is anonymous but it isn't. Grrrrrr. Now I feel so stupid and exposed. I can't seem to live my life in perfect anonymity, no matter how hard I try, I end up missing something !@#$% I hate that. I feel so exposed. Now I don't know if that other person is mocking me or if I'm just reading into the communications. Could be either. Have no idea. I am so foolish and upset about this. I was having a good morning until that happened. GRRRRRRRR. I've been dealing with a bunch of idiots and that made it worse. What a !@#$% life I've had. I hate it.

My parents are making me go to confession at church next week and i dont want to. Ive sinned greatly, but i always lie to them so they don't have a clue. Me and my boyfriend hang at his house when we know his parents are not there so we can masturbate w/ eachother completely naked. We have never had sex. but its still bad enough as it is. Also, i masturbate at least 2-3 times a week. I know its wrong especially to my religious belifs but i do it anyway even after ive asked for God's forgiveness. I call my friend a whore behind her back, and i secretly think this other guy (not my boyfriend) is hott and openly tell my friends (who know i have a boyfriend). Its all wrong and i really dont want to have to tell a preist. Guess ive screwed myself over.