For 25 years I've been a -freelance consultant-. But I haven't been successful for about 18 of those years. To make ends meet, I started maxing out my credit cards in the early 2000s and then later declaring bankruptcy. I tell family and friends it's due to -unpayable medical expenses- but I'm really living off the cash advances and charges. I live frugally and can make $70,000 of cash advances and charges last several years, which, combined with my meager actual earnings, lets me just barely make it from one bankruptcy to another (it's necessary to wait eight years between filing Chapter 7). In a few years I'll file bankruptcy for the third time. It's so easy I can't believe it. The courts are so crowded it's like an assembly line during the required personal appearances. Within about six months after discharge, I start getting credit cards again. I used to be a police officer, so this is a weird thing to be doing.

Please bear with me. I am one of the 1%. My family, as best we can tell have always been part of the 1%. Growing up no one told us we were rich, we sort of knew we were well off, we went to an exclusive private school and lived in a big house in the most exclusive neighborhood, had vacations, summer homes, and maids and groundskeepers. But so did everyone else we knew. I am 33 years old now, I am a female so my duties are mostly social, which is a full time job. I got married at 27 and I have two children. My husband is the boy I knew from grade school. Our marriage wasn't mandated but it was arranged, you marry him, he marries you, it's just better that way. I don't have intimate feelings for him, and he doesn't have intimate feelings for me, we get along like two cousins. My six year old daughter is available right now, there is a lot of competition from the mothers with boys, it is best if the whole thing is arranged early, so she doesn't have a feeling issue later on.

Tomorrow is my birthday.. my “friends” rescheduled one of their birthday dinners for tomorrow.... I didn’t stop them and I didn’t remind them. Now I know that I was scared to find out. They’re not my friends at all.... I’m just cheap entertainment and a source of a smile for them. They can continue their miserable lives... I’m going to Hawaii instead!

again. i was a hypocrite and hateful towards people over smoking, using drugs etc. and jelly for having girlfriends/wives/money whatever. i want to change. i Love God and everyone

i have a bad pattern of falling for guys and never making any kind of move, but the guy i like right now is different. the day after i caught feelings for him i decided id ask him if he wanted to hang out after school and he did so we went to a fast food place and sat and talked for almost an hour. it was the happiest ive been in a while and hes so sweet and cute. but like weve been talking a lot and we send each other memes all day and i worry if i make a move and he doesnt feel the same way then we wont be able to be friends. i dont even think ive ever met anyone before that i felt so comfortable with and i love him so much and i dont want to ruin what i have

Recently I ran into a gay neighbor in local park.He is in his mid 50's,a lawyer and has been after me for 2 years to be his lover.I told him I was straight and not interested but he is persistent.This day in the park we shared a cigarette and he kissed me unexpectedly before i could react.I found myself responding to his kiss and needless to say we necked for quite awhile.I ended up back at his place and we slept together.I guess I was lonely but it felt much more satisfying than I thought it could be.Now he drops by all the time and he is starting to assert control in the relationship.He tells me what to wear and lots of other stuff.I am becoming the more submissive partner and let him take charge.

Because I think adults have enough skills to drink out of a glass without a straw, but they want one because they don't want to put their lips on a possiblity dirty glass. Well I like to take straws dunk them in the toilet and let them dry out so it doesn't look tampered, hoping these fucking people will get sick as fuck!

So, I have somethings I need to get off my chest. I am in my early 40's and I am just working on a better me. I have warrants in 2 states from 20 years ago and because of these warrants and the fact that I am still terrified of them I have never been able to live a good life. I have worked crappy jobs, because I couldn't do anything that required a background check. I am very intelligent and have contributed to many things but not that lasted. The stupid thing is none if them were things I did to harm anyone. It was check fraud and the reason I did it was to make people like me. I wrote bad checks to give people what they asked for so they would stay my friend. Do I know better now...YES. But now 20 years later I have never again committed any crime since! I am a pta mom and active in my community and church. No one in my life knows about that part of my past. I am so scared people will find out. But I am too scared to face it. I have a plan to right this. I needed to get it out.