Everyone in my dorm warned me against him. "He's a player, watch out..." but I didn't care, we were so different and i have never even been on a date. But he chose me. And tought me in the short time we spent together that i am beautiful and that i can love my self. And i know we will never be able to be together as he wants it, but i am always going to wish we could have. I just can't give in yet. But i do wish he knew how much he has changed my life.

Im a musician/writer and my band is finaly kind of going somewhere but ever sence we started to get serious about this ive been feeling more and more insecure because the things i write about are things that have heppened to me and if i couldent tell the people i wrote the songs about the way i feel then how am i gonna tell a 300 person audence? I feel so alone and dont know how to deal with this. I dont want others to hear my music and say "wow, its like hes wirteing about me". I dont want them to steal the way im feeling and the emotion behind what i write. I dont want to become popular but its starting to happen and i dont think i can take it.

Im a musician/writer and my band is finaly kind of going somewhere but ever sence we started to get serious about this ive been feeling more and more insecure because the things i write about are things that have heppened to me and if i couldent tell the people i wrote the songs about the way i feel then how am i gonna tell a 300 person audence? I feel so alone and dont know how to deal with this. I dont want others to hear my music and say "wow, its like hes wirteing about me". I dont want them to steal the way im feeling and the emotion behind what i write. I dont want to become popular but its starting to happen and i dont think i can take it.

I feel like I need a man in my life cause I hate being alone. I am trying to learn to love myself enough to want to be alone so I am not emotionally dependant.

Everyone warned me against him.

I edit my pictures. There is a nectarine on my desk and it is molding. I might let it sit there for a while. I had to throw out everything sharp so I can't cut myself. Somedays it makes me mad that I did that, like when I need to cut something(like bread or paper) but so far I haven't cut myself since and this was a few months ago. I like it when someone is at my house and needs a kinfe or sissors or something and I just say I don't know where they've all gone. And I laugh inside. I had to take up using nair on my legs. It stinks. I'm afraid if they put me on any more medication I might stop thinking all together or fall into a coma.

I'm currently married, however there is another woman that I love. She's my good buddy's girlfriend. She always tells me how unhappy she is with him and how they are going to break up soon. It drives me nuts to see him treat her so badly when I know I would cherish her. She and I are very similar and I think we'd get along together well. I want to tell her how I feel about her, but I don't know how she'll respond. I feel that I must tell her because it is driving me crazy inside and she will be graduating college this year and going back to her hometown. I'm so confused about what to do. Should I tell her how I feel or just let it go and be miserable with myself?

what does it mean when your boyfriend would rather hang out with his friend in stead of talking to you