I miss you. It's probably not a good idea for me to come back into your life, though, for either of us. So I'll just keep missing you. I think I can deal with that. It's only sometimes. I really do miss you, though.

I work in IT. With my employer's permission, I see all the screens of many users in real time. This sounds weird, but I find it fantastically disappointing that all of the recreational surfing the women do is celebrity gossip. Men are all over the map with topics, and they never browse for porn (they're being smart) but when they do browse for sex-related topics, it's always how-to. The women? Not interested. It gives me faith in these men that they're keeping their relationships strong. As for celebrity gossip, who's that helping?

ok so i used to be a very very devout christian. and a lot of people have 'guided me' on my path and such, including my band director (i'm a junior in high school). but now i'm not so sure if there even is a god. i feel dumb reading the bible or praying. this is probably because once when i was a christian i had a long argument with an athiest, and their arguments made sense. i just don't know. but i feel like i have to go to church because my family and fellow church goers, pastor and yes my band director expect it out of me. i am afraid to tell anyone about how i feel. i don't believe in god!!! i'm afraid i'm going to hell, too, but for some reason i just can't believe in god. what should i do?

At night when he calls me I am so tired but want to please him so bad that i will stay up all night. I haven't slept in three days.... i am afraid i am wasting my time... he just wants sex like the rest of them...

So I've added a few additional men to my rotation lately. The numbers up to about 9 on a steady flow. I really like them all and they all have so many great different things to offer. I'd like to take the best pieces from each of them to create the perfect man. I start to fall for one of them and then someone better comes along. I'll probably never be able to be in a steady relationship again considering this way of life is so much more fun!

I lied about having cancer to everyone I know. I had a lump in my breast and everyone was so nice and loving to me. It was nothing but I continued the lie for attention and love. Obvuiously I don't love myself to do such a drastic thing. Of course the lie collapsed as all lies do. I lost my relationship, self-respect, friends and job. I ask God to align me so I never hurt myself or anyone else with my false identities.

Much of a mans self respect and self worth are derived from his ability to be a bread winner. I believe this in my head, and I believe this in the world, but I can't find my drive. I can't find my passion, my ambition, or my reason. The irony is my trust fund has just come due and now I am a millionaire- the one thing that could put the fire in my belly has been extinguished - I will never face not having. I didn't work for any of it, but I don't know if I will ever tell anyone that.

I've been going out with my boyfriend for a year now. At first it was as if everything was perfect. We never fought and agreed on everything. Nothing about him annoyed me and I'm pretty sure nothing about me annoyed him. However, a month ago things changed. He cheated on me with a mutual friend in our group of friends and although I can't say I hate her or my boyfriend, the rest of our friends hate her, although they're willing to forgive my boyfriend for my sake. I didn't dump him, although there was a day that I wanted to...now he's leaving for college and I'm still in high school. He cheated on my once and I've agreed not to ask him about it, but how do I know that he won't do it again when he's 45 minutes away from me? Should I trust him and stay in this relationship, or should I give up on him? I really don't want to do, but he's my first boyfriend so I'm really not sure about what to expect or what to do...help?