I'm shy and upstanding in person, but love to get naughty and naked online.In reality my name is Al, but online I'm alchatt and I am a porn addict. I am like the last person you would meet in person that you'd think would be so naughty, but I am very naughty online. It all began when I bought my first video camera. I thought it would be fun to videotape myself pleasuring myself. I was so turned on looking at my video that I thought others would be turned on,too. So I began uploading my video, along with still photos from the video, to various porn sites and all the sudden I felt like a porn star. I started making more and more videos and sending them to more and more websites, and I just couldn't quit. I was sending them out to anyone that cared to see them. I made no money from them. My reward was just being viewed and accepted. It has been 10 years now that I been doing this and I keep telling myself that enough is enough. I have already broken my New Year's resolution for 2019 to qu

I'm packing my things and moving across the country in a few months. My boyfriend thinks he's coming with me, but he's not. And when I tell him that, he doesn't believe me. Throughout our relationship he has continually accused me of cheating. His conspiracies even cost me two relationships with two good friends of mine and got us kicked out of where we were staying once. And no, I haven't cheated on him. But recently I caught him cheating on me and it had been going on for awhile. It really hurts when someone continually accuses you of shit you haven't done, but it hurts so much worse to find out that they've been doing what they've been accusing of. Anyway, we tried working things out and it's been two months since I found out and he's began accusing me of cheating again. I kicked him out of the house last night. I literally caught you! Cheating! And you have the audacity to question me again? After I caught you? Really heartbroken. He's not coming with me. I won't let him.

I have no goal in life and i do not want to live anymore.

I met this guy he was so amazing but we fight over small issues but get back feeling more love towards each other but this time I said something unintentional and that set him off and now he isn't talking to me and we both are maintaining silence and it's killing me. He admitted having feelings for me I too have and he knows that but I don't know I'm afraid this silence might separate us and it's painful.

I was being really mean. I'm sorry. I apologised to you, and you accepted it, but I'm still beating myself up. What I said wasn't even that bad. I don't know why I feel like this.

FOR ALL THE BOYS OUT THERE: how do I get a guy to kiss me? We have exchanged eye contact and stares for WAY TOO LONG now I feel like I should do something about it. It’s pretty evident we both like each other. but the thing is there is 1 more month until graduation and we both go to a private school so i'm not sure if we can ever get alone time/space if you know what I mean… And this is because he's pretty shy and it would ruin our lives to do it in public

Sometimes the only thing that keeps me alive is the knowledge of the devastation that my family and loved ones would experience if I gave up. I'm so tired of struggling in avery aspect of my life. I don't want to do it any more. But I'm not willing to make everyone else suffer by ending my own suffering.

Sometimes the only thing that keeps me alive is the knowledge of the devastation that my family and loved ones would experience if I gave up. I'm so tired of struggling in avery aspect of my life. I don't want to do it any more. But I'm not willing to make everyone else suffer by ending my own suffering.