i had sex (twice) today with somebody who is not my boyfriend--but he thinks he is. the whole time i was imagining my boyfriend's disappointment. the worst part is my boyfriend was my first and i love him. i have ruined everything. i feel filthy and undeserving around my boyfriend and i just want to keep having sex with the other boy as a raping punishment for myself. i hated every second of it.

I used to be a bit of a slapper when I was young and slept around a lot. It never bothered me before but now I am in a loving relationship sex just doesn't feel the way it should. Will I ever be able to forget the past?

I've had a problem with low self esteem as long as I've been alive. Each night I try to find a reason to go on another day. I can't think of a reason any more. I love her and can never tell her or be with her. What's the point?

I had an affair that ended my marriage more than ten years ago and remarried the new man. Although the first marriage was difficult and my new husband is wonderful and life is good, the guilt I feel has damaged my life. I still care about my ex and pray for him. I know I hurt him terribly and he's said he will never forgive me. But, he's gone on with his life, the kids are grown and happy, and I am stuck in my guilt. I don't know how to let go. How do you recover when the person you have to forgive is yourself? I thought I'd begin by confessing here.

i am terrified of bees, wasps, and poltergeists

i really really really want to have a sexual experience with another girl. i'm so curious as to what it would be like. the thought gets me really turned on! i'm not a lesbian, i still like guys. i wouldnt want to have a serious/emotional relationship with a girl, just a physical one. also, i would want it to be both (mine and the other girl's) first girl-on-girl experience and i would want to try EVERYTHING! as you can tell, i've thought about this a lot. too bad i cant go into detail because of the e-admit rules. it would be great to just tell someone what i want to do. it would be even better to do it!!! i cant wait until i'm at college! ;)

let's see 9months ago i found out i was pregnant with my ex bfs baby. the day after i found out and told him he disappeared. i didnt even know wer to find him or anything. well i had the baby a couple of weeks ago and the day after i got home from the hospital he emails me asking me how i was doing and asking about the baby. he claims he wants to see the baby but jus not now and that he would get back to me when he wants to see the baby. my question is...should i even bother? i mean should i let him see the baby?

I'm a guy and I thought my secret was just mine and my buddys, but this past saturday I found out different. Neighbor down the road has been batching it for almost a month, saturday when I was over there helping him he said, I'm so damm horny I'd screw you if you'd let me, and I won't tell your buddy, so I'm not going to tell him either.