i pretend to be someone fun so people will like me... but im tired of acting...

I killed my girlfriends cat by running over him on the way home from work about 6 months ago. i didnt tell her i was the one who did it, she just came running in the house yelling

I'm in love...but i know she doesnt like me. It started last year in history when she sat next to me. She had that brilliant smile that lit up the room and eyes that melted into me. I know I have no chance with her...but i cant help but think about her.

I've been really confused lately about the status of my relationship with my girlfreind. Since she has moved away to college (only about an hour away) I feel like she has become a completely different person. She always used to party, so her doing so now isn't an issue. She has admitted recently that she has done drugs; she is smoking again. She tells a story of when she was driving home drunk one night and hit a parket car. She thinks this is a funny story, but it fills me with a sense of dread and concern for her. It seems like she is slipping further away from the person i fell in love with and i don't know how to bring her back. She used to be so kind, and smiled so easily - It would just kill me to see her waist her life and all her talent. I don't know what i should do to solve this problem. Worse yet, i find myself not really being attracted to her anymore. Should i face the problem head-on in a way that will only make her defensive? I don't know anymore.

I really wish i had the stength to stop doing drugs, and stop drinking. Every day I stay in my dream world where I tell myself that I could stop doing these things, but I choose not to because it is more fun. God. I need a guy to love that will save me from all of this bullshit and pain. Im only 14 years old. COME ON. This is too much for anyone my age to bear and I think I am starting to go completely insane. Please save me. please please save me from myself i guess. whatever someone has to do i just need someone to hold who believes.

I met this russian girl online, she happens to live in my country which is not unusual since we have lots of them here. I talked to her over the phone for almost 3 weeks then we met twice, i thought we had something going on but she said all of a sudden she loves her ex and wants to get back with him but she's not sure he wants the same but anyway we cant be together because she has no space for me. i mean what sort of twisted shit is that? anyway, i dont love her or anything, but i really hoped that we could have something in the future. now all is lost. im so fucking depressed!

I ROCK!! My life is a total mess. My mum's a mutcase but she rocks.I don't fit in at university.I am dirt poor. The guy I am in love with loves my best friend and I am overweight but life is fantastic isn't it? WOOHOOO!!

I have an honest question out to all girls (ages 14 to 21ish) Is a good looking 'hot' body really THAT important? I sometimes see really cool wholesome type unsuperficial girls hang out with really superficial guys. These guys have no personality and just get drunk all the time, yet everybody calls them hot. I'm not chubby and I've grown some muscle over the past months but it doesnt seem to be affecting anything as everyone wants to see sixpacks bulging biceps. Does body really dominate personality?