I have a pretty good life and for the most part im happy. And then the other day I went somewhere I had planned not to, but at last minute I changed my mind anyway and went. It was like fate When I was there I had my first feeling off love at first sight, I never felt it before now. He wasnt gorgeous and he didnt seem too intelligent but I felt such strong feelings for him. Turns out he felt the same. But I cant be with him and we both know it. Even though when he touchs and kisses me I feel like the luckiest girl ever I sometimes feel that its just physical for him and he only wants to fuck me. and that he can do. I just want to be close to him and it seems having sex with him is the only way I can do. We've both said we want to be together but Im 15 and he's 30. So I'll meet him and have sex with him and thats as close as it will get. It breaks my heart I want him so much. I wont get all the benefits of a loving relationship. Well I still have my long term boyfriend for that I guess.

I used to be fat... I used to be in love with you but you thought I was too fat. I got over you..... and now I am skinny and hot. Now you love me and I can't stand you. Maybe next time you should pay more attention to what's on the inside rather than the out.

I am having hot sex with my ex boyfriend even though i still love him but he doesnt love me. I love the sex and am only turned on my him. We say we are only friends but really i want more.. I want to lay in his bed all night but then after the sex it all i go to my own room and have to sleep alone. I sooo want more but he doesnt.... i am free to do what i want and sleep with anyone but i only want him.

I met this girl on an online dating website. Being a social amataur, I start out in deep personalish conversations with this chick. And she seems offended, and has told me a few times that she was and for me to stop... but she keeps messeging me back. I gave up many times assuming it was over, but as an experiment messeged her some more. She keeps responding, but I feel like maybe I'm harrassing her. Now, in the original website my profile said that I want a hard and not easy girl. So the fact I wrote that could mean that she is simply behaving that way and she really digs me, therefore she keeps messeging me back, but not in a way that let's me know that I'm "winning" or succeding in my conv. with her. But it could also be that she's to wimpy to just tell me to stop messeging her and I'm too dense to pick up on her more subtle messeges. And they're not very subtle... Which is more valid, guilt or determination...

I have a b/f. Sometimes I think the only reason I stay with him is because of how people look at us when we are out together (we are both very attractive) and what he does for me in bed. Other than that, I think he is boring and detached. He also has 'issues' that I am just not interested in dealing with. I find myself saying mean things to him, but it's not my real personality to act like that. I think about me exb/f a lot. He was super hot, great in bed and made me laugh although he was very possesive and jealous. My ex is still single and has told me that he wants me back. I have cheated on my b/f with him. I couldn't help it; he gave me the best sex ever for years. What holds me back from getting together with him again is the thought of fighting like maniacs. I don't want to fight like that, but I don't want to be bored either.

I have a HUGE crush on someone who is not my girlfriend. It's getting out of hand and I just want it to go away, especially as this other lady is married to a man (I'm a gay female) and lives really far away from me, so is unlikely ever to reciprocate my feelings. My girlfriend lives quite far away too. We see each other as often as possible but I want someone close by. Doesn't explain why I like this other lady though. I'll probably figure it out soon, but right now it's just really annoying me. Can't stop thinking about JB...

i love him he knows it, and he has said he loves me too....but he has a girlfriend..and they always fight and they are so wrong for each other! It is so unhealthy! He is so sweet and amazingly handsome and we make a great couple (so everyone has told us), but there's just a lot standing in the way...and he always does what he can to turn me on....but only when we're alone....he's kinda different around our friends... But the other night, we were cuddling on his bed...and he kept running his fingers, very slow and very tenderly, up my back...it was turning me on so much...I almost just turned over and started kissing him, but i don't wanna ruin the great relationship we have...*sigh* I'm so confused.....and i love him so much! If only he knew just how much i want to be with him...

so. last week i made that post. about doing drugs and drinking and being 14 and not being a virgin. and i wanted to know if i was normal. i just wanted to say thank you though, to those people who gave me feedback. and told me THE TRUTH. im really not that normal. it made me feel like someone cared. i wanted to say thank you. and even though im not getting better, or changing, i know the truth. and someday when i am ready the truth will help me. thank you. (and no.. im not trying to be an attention whore, or whatever.)