tomorrow i'm supposed to go out with this guy. i've met him once before for a short while, so i know he's a bit shorter than me. he was stoned at the time, so i dunno if he remembers. i've never been with a shorter guy, cuz i like to feel protected, and it feels safer when he's taller. i don't remember how much shorter he was, but i hope it's not too much, i'll feel like a beast. lol.

Where do I start behind my confident and apparently succesful start is a hollow shell with a hole in the middle. No matter what I do i cannot shore up my self-confidence and thus suffer massive depression on a regular basis. I can't tell people, it would look ungrateful to be depressed when I am at one of the world's best universities and have a great job to go to. But I just can;t handle life a lot of the time i also hold myself up to too high a standard, I can never be satisfied with what I have achieved or done or have. I jsut judge myself on the next rung of the ladder. I want to stop but I can't help my nature. It doesn't help that I am extremley kinky and am ashamed of the things that I enjoy sexually/. there is nothing illegal or wrong, just kinky in a way that is wrong to me and that I wish wasn't in me. I also can't really deal with the fact that I am bisexual That feels better to say (metaphorically) out loud. Don't judge me

i am very happy in my marriage and have a wonderful daughter with my wife.........but i find myself thinking of an old love from 10 years ago we never got a chance to say goodbye and she found out i was getting married from another source other than me.....and i feel really bad about that......... i Google for her often and have found her and she is married and seems to have a great job.......i dont want to intrude on her life and would not jeoperdize mine........but i would justl like to know if she thinks of me as i do her....... i thought about emailing her but i know it will just lead to trouble that i dont need and i would never hurt my wife... i just wish i didnt feel like this.........am i alone?

I am about to marry my best friend and soul mate. I love him. I have come to realise that one can love someone, and also love the 'idea' of someone else. I am in love with the idea of a married man I used to have a relationship with. I have no idea why I am so addicted. I am haunted by him. His marrage is a horrible one, his wife hates me (and looks just like me, I'm told),and they hate eachother. I think the reason I carry this torch is because I know I could have been so much better for him. Why did I ever leave you, I ask myself. I could have had something powerful, electric. Even now when we occasionaly talk to eachother, I feel it. Every time. And I know you do too.

I always say it will be ok.... but it never is! I am sorry I have to lie but if I told tyou the truth I would only disappoint you. The only thing I know for sure is that you will be better off without me....

Last term, I was in the hospital for a week. During that time I missed my finals. My make up final for one subject is coming up and I don't want to take it. But if I don't take it, I will fail the course. I don't want to take the final because I am not ready for it. I didnt keep up with my work like I should have. The only chance of me getting an okay grade is if I get 100 on this test. Anything less than exceptional will result in a fail.

I am 20. I have a boyfriend of a year and a half who i love very much but we have never slept together as he is a virgin and is really shy. When I am around him he makes me feel uncomfortable about sex because he seems to have such a big problem with it. Before I was with him I was in a very close and very sexual relationship for 3years and so you can understand that I dont feel fulfilled. I am seeing somebody else behind his back and we are sleeping together. This has been going on for 2 months now and I'm starting to feel closer to this other man than I am to my boyfriend. I know that if me and my boyfriend slept together we would become closer as a couple and this would solve my problem of feeling unfulfilled in the relationship. I know he's not scared of commitment and he loves me as we have talked of marriage, but everytime I try to talk to him about sex he changes the subject and acts uncomfortably. I don't know what to do. what prevents a 20yr old male wanting to have sex?

I lie everyday. Sometimes, it's small and insignificant. Like if someone asked me if im ok, and im not, i say, im doing good. Other times, I feel horrible about it but I tell myself that I don't care. Yes, I lie to myself too. I lie about not believing in god when I do. I lie about attempting suicide( I tell people that i've slit my wrists, when all I do is think about suicide) Last year I lied about having a boyfriend and I told everyone about this fake person I made up. I lied in class yesterday about being an insomniac. Everyone believes me. Sometimes, the lies go out of hand, and in order to spare myself the humiliation, I eventually make myself believe in the lie. I lie about knowing things. Everyone believes me. Everyone feels bad for me because of the lies I tell. Like how my fake boyfriend dumped me because I was ugly. Everyday, I also tell myself not to lie, but I do it anyway. I want to stop.