I married the only woman who ever showed any interest in me. Now 24 years later I realise I never loved her or anyone else till I met my current massage therapist. I walked into the office and for me it was love at first sight even before I knew who she was. Since then I haven't had one moment from the time I wake up till I fall asleep that I don't think about her. I'm depressed more than I've ever been since she's happily married to a guy that's twice what I could ever hope to be. M....., I love you now, I've loved you for two years, I'll always love you and I'll never be able to tell you. I wouldn't be able to handle the look of disgust on your face. I know I'm old, fat and yes, ugly. God, I wish I could only tell you how I feel.

I absolutely despise ignorant black people that ride on Martin Luther King's wave in a desperate attempt to gain respect from people of other races. Do yourselves a favour you blind morons, focus on today's world. I have never been a slave, owned a slave and neither have you so SHUT THE F*CK UP ABOUT IT ALREADY!! Ghetto/urban culture is a joke. I fantasize about brutally murdering anyone of any race/colour who adheres to this downright pathetic lifestyle. White people can be part of this

i live 2 seperate lives.i am 20. i have a boyfriend. met at university and we have been together for a year. i love him. when i returned home a few months ago i met up with an old friend id always loved. we spent alot of time together and i fell in love with him all over again. now when i go home he is my boyfriend. i love him. but it hurts me that i cant tell him that. i know i mean a lot to him too. he knows about my boyfriend. but we cant talk about him. we pretend he doesnt exist. i spend hours talking to him over the internet when we are not together and secretly wish that we were. i find myself thinking about him when i am with my boyfriend.my boyfriend doesnt know.and that hurts me too. i dont want to hurt him. i love him. i secretly want him to find out so that all of this will be over. but i dont want him to know. i wish i would feel as close to my boyfriend as i do to my friend. we havnt sleept together yet. if we slept together i wouldnt feel the need to cheat on him.

for the past couple of years i have been suffering from anorexia. i starve myself throughout the day. when people ask me if im hungry i lie and say no. i dont know how to stop.

I'm 17 and go to high school. I've always gotten good grades (3.4 - 3.7 GPA), never done drugs or drink. Usually just skateboarding and hanging out with friends. This is my first semester of 11th grade and for some reason, I dont even care about school anymore. I get my progress report with 2 F's, a D, 3 C-'s and an A (in English, the only interetsing one.) and I dont care. I havent taken a foregin language and I cant pass math so it's impossible for me to go to college now, something I have always wanted to do to become a psychology major. I dont know why I don't care anymore and even when I have weeks to get my F's to passing grade I dont even want to. I'm sick of school and so burned out. I still have a year and a half of school and I don't know how I will make it? Now that I can't go to college I will live a low income life and be pretty much screwed for the rest of my life. What the hell do I do???

I have given up on the male species. I will be one of those old ladies with a shot gun, sitting on my porch with 30 cats running around. I'll probably just be sitting there, polishing my gun singing

really, really mad at my exbf. he said he wanted to break up but i didn't want to yet, so i worked on him and made him talk to me until we agreed together. the reason i did this is because i want to find someone new to move onto before i leave him. finally we had a huge fight and talked things out again, he thinks we're still dating but i think we are not. i still havent found someone new, i dont know if i should move on and look for someone new, go back to him until i find a new person, or really try hard with him. thoughts? i don't really like him, but he thinks we are going to get married. he talks about kids and the future and i dont think im ready. so maybe i should just dump him now?

Recently my brother and I were re-united after 12 years. He's now 21 and I'm 19. I couldn't believe how gorgeous he's become. ur parents split when I was 7 and although I briefly remember him, it was when we were kids. I know he's attrected to me as well. I really want it to happen, even though I know it's wrong. Am I a bad person?