i so addictied to sex so much so that i even sleep with my best mates girl and my own brothers girl.i feel so bad about it this only happened about 1 week ago what should i do?write to me

Hi my girl friend treats me like crap but im too scsred to say something,she always put her mates first and me second where as i leave every thing to be with her i have even turned down about 4 good jobs because i wouldnt see her.she is going to a party on friday and im scared she MIGHT cheat on me but i dont want to say anything to her in case she dumps me for being stuipd and sad.

I hate myself and the voices in my mind. I want to give up. But I know I will just fail at that like I have failed at everything else. I am so lost. I hate everyone around me. I hate the guy who raped me... I hate my dad for molesting me growing up... I hate my brother for making me dance naked for him when I was younger... but most of all I hate myself. I have

I am the person who wrote the original post. A long time ago my brother and I were teased in school because we were very different from the kids in our area. We are half black/white and we were dark woth blonde hair and light eyes, that was srtange to the people around us, no one would date/talk/or befriend me or my brothr and we were always together. One day it just happened we were hugging to console eachother, my brother was just beat up by the towns east side gang and was bruised badly. My mom, being a single parent and afraid didnt know what to do, We had cousins who lived in a nearby town but they were unable to help much. My Mom who buckled under the pressure, moved in with my aunt. THere my two older cousins were harrasing me for sex all the time, to make it easier on my Mom, I gave in and had sex with both of them, I did enjoy it, but that happened only once. My brother and I lived there until we graduated and he moved away to start a acting career. He changed his name and moved on in life. One day I missed him desperately, so I looked for himand found him struggling to make it big. I agreed to move in with him to help him with his bills. He only had a studio apartment and the space was very small. The contact between us was too much to bear. We really never had relationships because of our lack of socializing in those crucial years growing up. We succumbed to our desires and began having sex that seemed so natural. I was not thinking of the posibility of a baby because I thought that it was medically imposible. Well, That year I got pregnant and had twins. When I found out I was so scared that they would turn out mentally or phisically damaged, but to my surprise I had two healthy boys Ethan and Evan. We decided to get married in thecourt and because of his name change that would be easy. My mom just thinks we live together and I had the twins with an old boyfriend who ababdoned them.. No one questions us and theuy think my brother is gay.. My children do call him daddy and the family thinks its cute bacause they "dont know thier real father" as my mother puts it. They are small now and I dont know what to tell them when they get older. My cousins do not bother me andthey have moved on in life both in jail for child abuse/pedophilia. I dont know what makes me love my brother the way I do, i dont know why we cling to eachother and can only find love with eachother. I am hurt that prople find it sick, but the emotions never lie and you cant help who you love or why you love them. Its hard when people say : "You and your husband look more like brother and sister" I just laugh and say were secretly related, they think its a joke but have no Idea, my husband winces, for fear that our secret willbe exposed oneday. For now, I can tell e-admit and its readers. Thank you for hearing my story, I'll need your help later when Ethan and Evan are old enoughto ask questions about thier uncle/dad, they are going to want to know-

O.k. so there's this guy friend of mine, who I REALLY like, but we don't usually hang out in person, although yes we actually know each other. We usually talk on aim everyday. How do I first of all, tell him how I feel, and secondly, how can I make this a relationship one that involves us being together in person? I never know what to do around guys.....

There is a girl who likes me but she has already went with my little bro and another 5 or 6 guy that i have heard of.she is coming on to me very strong she is grabbing me and teling me what she will do to me if i give her a chance.the problem is if what i heard is true i could set a STI and i dont want that.do i do it anyway?help me out here

I secretly wish my husband would just hurry up, have a heart attach and die so I don’t have to deal with him anymore. He has verbally assaulted me for years and has even hit me to many times to count. I leave he stalks me. I would rather stay with him knowing where he is then worry is he hiding in my house. The reason for the heart attach is: I have been replacing his blood pressure medication with my birth control. Lately he hasn’t been feeling very well……………………

I am really happy i joined this site.. it has helped me alot... thank you to everyone who has commented on my problems. But here is another. I never thought i would be the type to harm myself. Last night i was sick of feeling so bad inside. At times i feel that the pain is going to explode within me. But i don't know what to do. The medications just don't work. So in a desperate attempt to deal with it.. i began to cut myself. Every time i felt the knife cutting through my skin was like a comparision to how i feel on the inside. Today I haven't been able to stop thinking about it. I am excited to go home and do it again. It gives me a temporal relief whaich is better than none at all. I just needed to tell someone. Thanks.