i got divorced for the man i am now with . but life is not as good as i had dreamed. in a small way i want to be alone altogether. i want to run away at start completely over. but the man i'm now with says he loves me.

I'm trying to overcome my shyness... I was even more shy in the past but I want more... What U recommend?

I'm too damn sincere, and I always know what I want when I see it. It really puts off girls I meet. When I meet a girl I like (and I don't meet many), I make up my mind about it instantly, and I begin to think how to win her. But this sort of self-awareness spoils everything. Everyone wants to come together gradually, but I'm already thinking far too far ahead, and inevitably the girl notices and backs off. What I wish I could do is simply act cool and casual, but I'm always swept away by my feelings, because, to be honest, I'm lonely. This is more of a straightforward admission than a plea for advice.

four months after my first real relationship, which lasted 5 1/2 years, i got involved with some one else. he's a bit of a crazy guy, passionate and shares my worldview. we got serious unexpectedly fast, and then he told me he was going overseas to visit his girlfriend (!? ex?!) who had left two months ago. he's been gone about six months with sporadic phone calls and emails. he'll be back in two weeks. while he's been gone i've kissed a few people but nothing serious. when he phones we dont talk about the girl, but i think, i gather, it didnt work out so well and he's just playing the field over there. i miss him and like him as a person, but... i dont want to just be a back up plan. i also wonder if i am just looking for a companion because it's what i know, what i know at least than i know how to be alone.

I want to kill myself.... but I'm afraid. I always feel like a complainging whiny b!tch. People have life far worse off than I do, but I can't stop feeling sorry for myself. I've tried to stop cutting. I REALLY have. And I feel like I let HIM down everytime I do it. I promised I wouldn't. I'm not sure if what I had was an eating disorder. I tried to lsoe weight, so I didn't eat anything for a week. A friend of mine came over and made me eat. Now I skip meals a lot. I don't really know what to call it. And my parents used to hit me. Not bad, like punches or anything that left bruises. But it was enough to hurt. My mom used to tell me that she hated me. And I hate her. I don't want to be here anymore.

I am 29, I have been w/ my partner for 6years, We work so hard and barely make $$. Its X-mas and I have been thinking of doing some escorting behind his back. I have never did this, nor have we ever chaeted on each other. I just want to be able to have a good X-mas for him and our families and maybe pay up some bills. I am normal as they come, I actully kinda don't like sex much, but willing to do this to get ahead. Can anyone give me advice?? I should note that if he was to find out I did this, he would never forgive me and would probally leave me.

i lie.. everyday.. i'm afraid if i am honest no one will accept me. i have lied so much i don't know who i am anymore. i don't recognize the person in the mirror anymore.

i've known dis guy and we became frens. back then when he doesn't have a gf, we always hung up on on the phone talking about anything. I remembered when b4 i was off to boarding school.he said 'i love u'.After a week later, he told me he has found himself a girlfren. i was shocked actually but then juz be happy for him eventhou in my heart lives a hunger of love dat will never be fulfil. After 5 or 6 months later, which is now, i am on my holiday, i started to forget about him but he came back. We met as a fren and he started to hold my hands and hug me as if i was a gf to him.(btw, he was in long-distance relationship wit his gf). he said he was lonely, he miss me n how he never find me b4 his gf but he kept saying me as fren. thank god i dnt have sex wit him. now, i feel so hard to off this relationship as he told me he is sick. cancer at the age of 19. final stage. i coulnt say ntg but keeps feel sorry. i'm stuck wit him n he always said he loves his gf n still wants me.