i am a female and i always fantasize when i'm in bed, i was a guy who sexually attracted to women. i'm not a lesbian, i'm just a girl who adores man but sometimes i like to think how it feels like to be a man on the bed and F..k women's a..

I am a married woman and earlier this year found out my husband was having an affair with a married woman and said he was in love with her. I didnt leave but was really mad so i had an affair , my affair has been going on for about 8 months now. The man i am having an affair with is married with no kids.I think I am falling in love with this man. I know its wrong but i cant help it. He doesnt know my feelings for him tho. Just a few days ago i told him that i was pregnant and he was the father. He was shocked. But for now he doesnt want his wife to know. He said he wants to sit on the side line and watch his child grow up,just not be a part of the kids life.Im hurt..I want him to be a father to my child.

I'm a crystal meth junkie and I come from a house of incest and torture. my brother molested and beat me and raped or tried to rape my sister, my dad molested me. My mom's not all there sometimes. I'm following a path that no one follows and has no name, sometimes I feel superior to people. I feel inhuman sometimes, and it feels good. But then I realize, I have a body and I'm human. And I don't like that feeling. I used to torture myself about prostituting and letting guys f..k my a.. while high on ice, but really, that's all gone now. I'm starting to view the world through selfless eyes, a part of me is a little frightened of that. I'm seeing the world as it is, stripped of illusion. Am I becoming cold?

my boyfriend hits me, but i am in love with him

Okay, there's this dude that i like and he has turned me down twice. I don't know why i even like him; he doesn't even know that i know that he is talking this guy though. I don't see why he would choose that big out of shape thing over me, but it's what he likes so i can't say much. I just wish he would tell me that he has someone, instead of telling me all these dumb reasons for not hooking up with me. Why can't i just move on and not like him anymore?

I am in college, I don't like it. I don't like the criteques, I dont like that someone grades me on my interests. I dont like writing essays and I don't like the pretentious assholes who think they are so wonderful. I don't like getting up in the morning to go to school, I dont like having to get out of my pajamas to walk there and I dont like how I feel when I am there. For the $20,000 I am paying to be there for four years I wish the teachers would cut the shit and teach us things that are actually important to my career. I cry everynight and I know that I am depressed. I think it might be brought on by my birthcontrol pills. Why am I on them any way its not like we have sex more than three times a month. I wish I had someone to talk to. a person who would listen and offer advice. I can't afford a therapist. I dont know what I want to do with my life after graduation and that worries me. I worry all day long.

i admit that my life isn't going so good. i think one of my friends like me in that way......i have a gf mind you.

Its been a while since I have e-admitted anything and well though my surroundings attempt to get better my environment is leaving me behind. Is it crazy I feel this way? The last I did this I wanted to kill myself and well I sat in silence and observation thinking that soon I would recieve entertained hopes of life becoming better for me but instead life has sunk deeper into becoming a doldrum, as the expression goes. My problems are stacking upon themselves and getting worse,nothing has changed. After being raped, having a shattered family, seeing a brokenself, and the problems of others stacking up, I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!! I guess the biggest problem I have right now is the whole rape issue which does not seem to make itself scarce but more alive in me. The person who raped me was one of my best friends and on my part still is but now more people are involved in this and its making all other problems hell. What should I do, I have run out of ideas,my body and mind are strained!!