I feel bad for looking through my boyfriend's e-mail. He's the greatest guy I've ever been with, and we've been together for ten months, but my best friend used to have a crush on him and then she stopped liking him, introduced me to him, and we started dating. The friend is always pretty close to my boyfriend, but a few other girls are too, and I realize they're just his friends, but I couldn't help wondering, because he's been acting pretty strange for the past two or three days. So I checked his e-mail. Nothing. And now I feel bad for being the tiniest bit suspicious. If I trust him so much, then why did I go through his private stuff? Am I a bad girlfriend? One of my friends said she does this too, but... I still can't help but feel guilty.

I admit that I want to reach a point in my life that will free me from my daily job. I get up at 0200, am out the door by 0400, work all day in heat, dust, dirt, noise and traffic. I get home after 1800, do a few things to prep for the next day and flop into bed after a quick shower-- totally exhausted. My "night" is a scant six hours and I'm up and at it again. The days seem endless and every one is a duplicate of the previous. I'm not getting any younger. It seems to me that being in charge of my own destiny is the best way out of my rut, Bill Gates already started and made MicroSoft a smashing success, so where can I go now?

I like my bandmate.I didn't think about it being a crush before. I don't even know WHY though.He's socially cold and hides his best qualities and half the time he acts like he doesn't care about anyone but himself.I feel like an outsider. But I like him. I want to help him, he gets so easily embarassed, he cares too much about what people think and it's why he's so distant.I think I have the 'want to make it better' syndrome.If I could understand WHY I would care so deeply about someone who seems so hurtful and cruel, and just downright messed up, then I could deal with it better.On top of this.I'm a guy he's a guy.I don't lean heavily toward men, and generally prefer women but I don't shut out men either.I suppose I could give it some time.But at this rate he's such a closed up kind of person that I don't even know if it's ever going to be solved.I'm confused, frusterated at how hard even this friendship is much less anything that could happen between us ever.

I don't know if I am an alcoholic. I drink on average 6 days a week although I do wait until an hour or 2 before bed to start taking shots. The bad part is I take roughly 6-10 shots of 92 proof alcohol before I finally feel the effects. I have always had sleeping problems and alcohol is the best cure I have found. Without it, I am awake until 2-3 am when I have to be up @6 am. Sleeping pills make me WAY too groggy the next day to the point I can't function before noon. I know how horrible it is for my health but if it's a difference between a bad liver & being an insomniac, I'll take the bad liver. At least I'm not wandering around stuck on stupid from insomnia...

My wife and I got back together and it was the happiest time in my life. It didn't last though, my wifes never been one for going out to pubs and clubs but she changed considerably in her dress and behaviour. I think she was trying to recapture her youth. She finally went on holiday to turkey with some girls almost a 3rd of her age that she met through her job and she's met a young man over there and stayed on for an extra week. I went to the airport with flowers to greet her off the plane and only met her friends who told me the story. It was the lowest point of my life. The girls who were telling me semed to relish telling me all about it and were quite graphic in thier decriptions of my wifes behaviour, descriptions that i'll spare you. She has now returned home with the young man she met. They live in my house although he knows i am her husband. She is divorcing me and getting enough money to last her the remainder of her days. I don't know what to do.

I've never been so severely depressed in my entire life. Whenever I am alone, I break down and cry at the mess I've made of my life, and of those around me.

I wish I did not feel shitty about what I have done or do. But I do feel like shit. I have been living a deep dark secret. I have been stapped for money for years. I am divorced and raising kids on my own. No help. On top of that the kids father has been missing on and off for many of years. I got tired of sufering finacially .... so I went to work as a call girl on and off. Instead of fucking for free I make money and got laid. Real good money. Now I feel like shit for living this lie. The money was good, however I love god and feel I have badly sinned and need to stop. Plus I feel exhausted daily like I have flu with no tempature. I am tired of feeling tired. I have not used drugs for well over 10 years. I am tired of not feeling connected to god. I got angry because he doesnt seem to answer my prayers and alls I wished for was healing and to feel balance and have energy to work more ... for a normal job. The call girl thing became too tempting. I feel ashamed and emarrassed. God help

Hertfordshire-England. I'm 22 years old and I hide the fact that I am a lesbian from everyone I know-this makes me hate myself in a way I am unable to sum up in words. Dont get my wrong, I dont want to be straight, I just wish I had the corage to be honest with every1 I know about who I am. Even now, as I sit here at my desk I'm hiding this window in-case someone walks past and see's what I have written. I'm so sorry I'm such a coward.