This will be the first thing I've put out there since I've signed on here. I hate going to the gym. I've always struggled with my weight, and two years ago, I decided to try and do something about it. I am 6'3", and I used to tip the scales at nearly 380 pounds. Now I'm down to about 330-340, after going twice a day, six days a week, and now I've burnt out. But not just the way most people think. I hate going now to the point where it almost makes me feel physically ill. I imagine all of the good-looking, muscular, fit people there pointing at me, whispering and snickering about what a fucking disgusting pig I am, and how I don't belong there. I don't know how this happened, or why my views about going suddenly took this turn. I want to get to my goal weight (240) and it won't happen if I don't work at it, I know. But I'm at a loss what to do here! Am I going nuts? Does anybody else feel like this? Do I need personal training, Twinkies, or therapy?

i got wasted on a first date and vomited etc.. the woman is pretty cool and didnt (at least to my face) get down on me about it. she's a champ but im a little embarrassed.

I am pretty much proned to being emotionless, mainly based on the fact that I've lost all emotion when i was hurt extremely by my best friend. I say "emotion got me hurt might as well get rid of it; but in doing this I find myself alone. Those that have said they care for me and that i am their friend, i now feel as if it was a have-truth or lie all together. Though i consider myself emotionless, the option of death weeds itself in my mind. The loneliness piles up and I guess it gets to me. What should i do, should I take the option of death or....

Ok it started about 1 year ago, i started to like guys alot. I would stash play girls and male models under my bed and give myself pleasure wile staring at them. Then it got worse and i started checking out guys at the mall and everything. I just want to know what i am doing is that wrong?

Where I work people are starting to spread rumours that I am GAY. I am 39 years of age and still live at home with my dad. I overheard someone at work say dont bend down while he is around. I am not gay and have never had any thoughts of men on my mind but people still assume that I must be because I havnt dated for at least 10 years. I havnt had a girlfriend as such because I feel secure living with my dad. My mother killed herself when I was young and I feel obliged to live my father. I have no motivation in life and just recently I slashed my wrists but realised what a fool I had been. I wish people would stop saying these rumours about me my life I feel is really non descript as I dont really have many friends now that most are married and I am the only one left on the shelf. I am 6ft 7in and find it difficult chatting to women due to my low self esteem and lack off confidence talking to women. As I have said before I dont find men a turn on at all what is wrong please help,

I cheated on my husband with a co worker a few years ago. We would go to his house for mid day trysts, since he lived so close to our office. We would steal some time in an empty room in our hospital, while we were supposed to be somewhere else. This guy was hot! He went away to school and I haven't seen him for a while, at least I have my memories!

my best friend went to alabama and left me by myself for a month, she came back and had made out with all the guys she met, and had a sweet boyfriend, i went to her house after she came back and heard all her storys, she told me nonsttop about this sweet boy, i talked to him on the phone and he really is so sweet, anyway,i feel so jealus by her that shes found somebody so perfect, and im still alone, we are both hott,and had alot of relationsshhips eeven though hers were longer, but i still cant help feeling jealus of her

My boy friend wants 2 have sex. He said it will make ur relationshipalot better and me and him r both vergins. Ok now i love my boy friend and i think he is the right person 2 lose my virgenity to. And we have been 2 geather for 9 monthes and we love each other and i think we should.