I am really lonely. For the first couple of weeks after I moved up here, my cousin and friends visited on sundays. Now I don't even get phone calls. I am working almost 12hrs every day of the week, had one day off in the month and a half I have been here, and so have had little time to try to meet anyone. I have now found a group of people who I share an interest with, and they are lovely, but I only get to see them once a month. I can not find a home. I am imposing upon another of the companys managers. Living on the floor of his spare room. I cannot stay with him much longer. The area I am working in now is just so expensive. My branch of work is performing really well, but the business as a whole is doing so badly that I am almost convinced it is going under...

i graduated early and i would like to start summer school. i had originally planned to start school where i live know, so i could stay at home for a year. but recently my best friend invited me to live with her for a month and start summer school where she is, which is a 2 and a half hr drive from here. I would really like to stay with her, so I could maybe try to grow up a little bit, and try being away from home. It's only a month, so it won't be like I'm gone for forever. My mom, however, doesn't like this idea at all. I think it's because i will be with my friend and she thinks i won't really work at school. i've always done really well in school though, and my friend will be taking classes of her own so she will also be working really hard. it pisses me off that she won't even let me get out of the house for a month, when some kids are leaving the state to go to school. I will even be able to come home on the weekends. How can i convince her??

I am engaed to be married,and all I think about is my ex. I think about him all day, and dream about him at night. We dated for 2 years in high school, and I have never stopped loving him. I have been with my fiance for 6 years, but if my HS sweetie asked... I would leave my fiance in a heartbeat. I am to the point, that I am trying everything I can think of to get just a little thinner, justa little hotter, ANYTHING, to get his attention again. HELP! Is this just jitters, or am I living a life in the past. I mean, the grass is always greener, right????

I have a girlfriend, and i am a girl, i love her more then anything in the world. i am so fucking in love with her its surreal. i'm always buying SEXY SEXY SEXY lengerie for her to enjoy...making sure i look perfect for her, etc etc etc. i spent $111 on lengerie today, and a couple monthes ago i spent around $400 on thongs, theigh-high tights, skirts, etc...i have sex beads, a vibrator and a dildo, that is always on my mind when she is not around, and usually she's on the phone with me while i do it. i buy her CD's shirts, etc...she buys me lots too...its so perfect, we fight sometimes, its human i know...but i have a problem: I am a jelous person...if she looks at a girl, hugs a girl, talks about a girl...anything i'll FREAK OUT...i'll go fuckin mad...BUT for some stupid ass reason, i always ask her if she thinks this girls hot...or this girl...or this girl....What the fuck is wrong with me??? why do i put myself up for dissapointment (though she NEVER says a girl is hot...) help...:(

Just broke up with my g/f of 5 years and at the age of 30 it is like going out into the big wide world all over again. I could have stayed and put up with her heavy drinking sessions and abuse, but why should I , I still know in my heart that the right person is out there some where, and that none of us should just settle if we are not happy, life is to short. It may be big and scary out there and there will be moments that I will think I have made the wrong choice, but the bottom line is the only person who can make me happy is me, and until I am happy then I can't be happy with someone else

Tonight I had dinner with an unrequited crush from my past who I recently ran into. While I know that we are not meant to be together, and I love my husband very much...I still wish I had kissed this man. I'll likely never see him again. Now I wonder if I'll always wish I had just kissed him, even if it ended badly. I feel dirty for feeling this. I'm glad I saw him tonight. At least I have that.

my parents are divorced and a lot of it has to do with that my dad says my mom is crazy all the time. he always tells her she needs to get help, and it really hurts her feelings and makes her mad. i know my mom had a rough childhood bc her dad beat her older sister and her parents got divorced and her dad said he never wanted children. my grandpa didnt talk to my mom for about 15 yrs. Also my grandmother took away my mom and her siblings christmas's and special occasions after that bc she was so upset that her husband left her. my mother has HUGE mood swings, and cries all the time. I love her very much, but now i too think she should go get help from someone, bc i want her to be happy. i think she might hate me for it like she hates my dad :( i just dont know what to do...

Update: My musician man texted me and invited me to go and watch his new band play this weekend. I think I might head along.