ok i need some advice. Today my mom decided she thinks its time for me to find a guy and get some grandkids. I'm 24 and well i know its a nice age to think about ever wanting kids... That's not really the problem. I know i want kids. The problem is if i want a guy. I think i might be gay but i'm not sure myself. All i know, i keep falling in love with women i could never ever get anyway but well atleast i can dream :) i don't know how to know for sure if i am gay and i wouldn't even know where to start telling my oh so suporting parents. My mom is PRO gay as long as its not me cause then her dream of being grandma is gone. Well thats her thought on that though. And my dad is a big homofobic as it is. i think he already knows something cause my stepmom knows i was in love with a woman and they tell eachother everything... I really dont know what to do, i am not sure about anything anymore. maybe someone has some advice or experience with it and can tell me what to do.. oh well guess i'll have to wait and see.

In the past, I've e-mailed my neice often. But can you believe after not e-mailing me for a long time which would be like once in a blue moon, she e-mails me and said "you never e-mailed me it was my birthday". I shouldn't be affected by this but I e-mailed her back and told her that she's the one that makes me wait for her e-mails. In short, now she feels guilty for not even trying to e-mail me all the time. I'm blaming her for expecting me to even remember her birthday in fact she's the one that doesn't keep in touch.

I am gay I'm like totaly in love with my best friend named Kr.....

I'm sad, I have joint physical custody of my 5 year old daughter. I will, and have admitted that I was the one that fucked up everything which in turn ended in divorce and the current situtation. Seeing my daughter every other weekend, and they call that joint custody? On those Fridays I make my 2.5 hour drive to pick up my first born, it feels like a 10 hour drive. I have to try and dig deep inside myself to turn on the parent roll, and watch and listen as I see she has grown so much in the past 2 weeks, I think to myself I don't know who she is and have to start over from the begining. I pay $916 a month for child support, man the ex-wife must live well, NOT From what she says. I get voice mails stating she can't afford a winter coat for our daughter, even though she works 40 hours a week as well, I'm guessing at $10.00 per hour if that = $380 after taxes a week, or $1520 a month. Take that plus what I pay $2436. Pretty nice if you as me. Sorry for the rant, a little pissed today.

I,m addicted to phone sex......And always will.

I'm depressed. I cut myself with a razor blade two nights ago. It bled a lot. The cuts hurt. I have to hide them from people, but part of me doesn't want to. Some of my friends know. I'm on antidepressants. I don't think they are working yet. The doctor is referring me to psychiatric services for counselling. I don't know if that will work. I'm scared of it, when I think about it. I just sent three long emails to my boyfriend. I cried a lot while I wrote them. I'm in a public computer room. I wonder what people think. They pretend not to notice. Logically I know it will get better, because I've been here before, and it got better again. However I cannot bring myself to believe it. So I just have to wait. This isn't living. I might be breathing and walking and talking but I'm not living. I feel dead inside.

I recently met this girl online and we have been talking for the past few months. Unfortuntely were seperated by a few state lines but nontheless we seemed to form a pretty good friendship. Well recent events led to her admitting that she loved me. Not sure of my feelings I didn't respond until my best friend asked 3 simple questions that made it clear to me that I loved her as well. Despite the fact that I'm just barely out of high school and she is still their I told her even though i'm not sure we can ever be together. I'm glad I did but at the same time I kind of wish I hadn't because we are still apart and now that fact is even more real.

I am glad so many replied to my last post. I must e admit again. My neighbor and his wife moved into seperate homes. I also moved from my home to another place. I did not want to purposely disrespect my husband.Anyway, me and that dude kept messing with each other until he found out that I told my husband where I lived. I told my husband because I was very sick during pregnacy with my husband's child and had a 2 year old already. I needed his help and it was best he knew. The neighbor dude was so upset. The neighbor and his wife do not know where each other live, however, I know both. Every since they split up, I got closer to her. He gets so mad at me because I will not tell where she lives. I like both of them, however, he cannot see why I will not reveal his wife's secret. He's pissed. I feel like I messed up enough with this cheating and bisexual situation. I do not want hurt feelings anymore than they have to be. Anybody feel me?