i've had a crush on the hottest guy ever for about a year. i never thought he'd notice me because he always had a buch of pretty girls following him everywhere. one night at a party he asked if i would like to come home with him. i jumped at the chance. we were in his bedroom and he had a camera there and he said he wanted to take pictures of me. i said only if he would let me take pictures of him. when he finally got his pants off it was so tiny!!!! i ended up taking a picture of it which i later showed to my friend. she took the picture and put it on the internet and told everyone about it!!! he now doesn't have a bunch of girls following him ne more and i feel so bad!!!

i've been feeling really down all the time now, the guy i like doesn't like me i don't have many friends and i am lonely all the time, even when i am with people. i can't help but feel fat and ugly and i reall hate myself. things have been so grim for ages and i can't seem to find any one who has the time to help. lately, the littlest things have upset me and i cry all the time. the thing that bothers me most is that i don't seem to have a reason to feel so bad all the time. i try to be happy but i feel like i am just going in circles. what can i do????

I went a day without talking to my soul sister, and I don't think my soul will ever be the same. :( Never go a day without talking to your friends, it's hell... My friends keep me aliiiiiiive. Haaaaaaaaappy haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaappy!!!

Well, I am gonna move soon. Georgia Here I come! I only found out AFTER I got a girlfriend. Semms like you should NEVER say that "I will love you forever", huh?

me and my friend were round at dans house and we were messing up his lounge as a joke and we threw a dress up in the air. it got caught in the ceiling fan and ripped. when dan came down we said his dog had gone mad and done the damage even saying it had bit me. i left "to seek medical attention". i popped back round to dans a week later and his mum had had the dog put to sleep over the biting me incident :-S guilt!!!

the other night instead of doing my end of term coursework that was due in the next day i went out and got hammered. not to fear though i came home at 2:30 pissed as a fart and wrote THE BEST piece of work i had ever written and promptly printed it out....the result?? i failed miserably :( i wrote the word f**k a staggering 230 times, described alan turin as 'a bummer', said charles babbage invented the pentium and said bill gates killed the owners of napster!! i wish i'd read it before i handed it in :(:(

I can't stop smoking pot. I feel my life is worthless. What's the meaning to all this madness? Such insanity in the world. I hate the place. I have a boyfriend, I do love him dearly but he just doesn't understand me. Nobody does.

I think we're over.. i think he's going to break it off.. i dont know what to do anymore... every second of every day I want to die.. i want to be out of everyones way.. so that everyone can be happy again... so i cant be the cause of everything that hurts them and makes them want to die as well... cutting myself used to be a way for me to vent my frustrations.. and way to control all the pain i felt.. but now.. it just makes me even more depressed because I know that I cant kill myself.. Because i want to be here for him.. i want to be able to have the chance of being in his arms...I Love Him more then i will ever be able to tell anyone.. even him... but i dont think I'll get the chance to prove it to him... i think I'm going to lose the one person that is keeping me on this f**ked up planet... it's gotten so bad that even death doesn't seem like a possible way out.. my life is a living hell.. and it's all my fault...