when I was 14 my mom caught me masterbating, but at first I didn't know she was there just as I came I heard her, looked up and turned beet red with my dick seill in my hand she told me to clean up and to lock the door next time, but never really said anything to me after that.

I have just found this site and just have to get my present situation off my chest. I am married with a 17 year old son. Recently when I was going out one evening and wearing a rather revealing dress, showing a lot of cleavage I noticed my son had his eyes glued to me breasts and I found myself excited knowing he was seeing me as a woman not as his mom. I found I was turned on by this thought. A few days later I was thinking of how he had looked at me so I put on a flimsy blouse with no bra so my nipples showed through and I came into the room where he was and he just couldn't take his eyes off my breasts. I could see he was was aroused by the bulge in his pants, I felt so excited seeing this. I took it further a few days later by wearing again a flimsy top and no bra but also a short skirt with no panties. I bent over a few times as if picking up objects from the floor and I knew he could see I had no panties on. I felt so excited and I also sat opposite him and as if I wasn't aware of it I openned my legs so he could see my vagina. I was so excited that as a result i had to go to my room and masturbate. I don't know why I am behaving like this, when I think about it I feel ashamed but it gives me such a thrill, I keep thinking what I can do next. and am scared I might want to take it even further and I know I would be so ashamed and guilty if I did. I hope writing this down will help.

When I was 10, my aunt, who was 13, seduced me. I loved it. Today I love girls very much. They make me feel so warm and feminine.

this may sound completely ridiculous, but i'm a 17 year old and have no idea how to masturbate in order to bring myself to orgasm. i've read all the tips and tricks and tried many different things, but none have seemed to work. i've suggested to people, men, that i've met online that i just wait until that night and let the man i've married please me. they seem to think that it's not fair, that i should learn how to pleasure myself first, and think that i'll just "lay there unresponsive". but what am i supposed to do if i have no idea what i'm doing wrong and how to make it right so that i won't be "unresponsive"?

well i still have been continuing my other personality i guess you can call it. i try to stay away from people so i dont get involved but its so hard. i am so lonely and i seem to click with younger people then i do people my age. so that is what i grasp on to. i have let go of this one guy but now i am clinging to yet another older but yet he only knows me as the 17 year old. i wish i didnt have to do this, but i just cant help it. my life so badly sucks that this is the only happiness i find at the time. i know it cant ever happen but i still continue. i want to love so much but i dont see it happening and all i have is these guys that i meet and that fall for me. little do they know, but i suppose its best that they never know. lately i have been getting more and more sexually frustrated. the need for a man, all i have is this one guy that i currently talking to, and yes we had phonesex, it was great he was happy and so was i, i want more though but i know i cant have it. this guy i am currently involved with is 26, funny huh 26yr old after a 17 yr old. i guess its kind of like turned around on him or is it on me?, except he dont know. oh how i wish i can really be loved like he claims to love me, i want love so much, nor for a little while but for ever.. i hate my life, i hate living, i wish i didnt exisit. what is life without love, ill tell you.. ITS NOTHING, ITS DEAD, ITS LONELINESS. its the life i have to live, and i hate it so much.

I'm a naturally well 'endowed' guy, most of my friends know this due to me being on certain websites. Lately I've had feelings toward my best friend (a guy) that I've never felt before... I dont like other guys... just him. I dont know what to do.

I've been on the internet for about 5 years, when i first began coming i thought it would be a great way to meet someone. Little did i know that people can be so cruel in the internet world like they are in real life. So i got tired of that and decided to assume another identity on the internet which im sure a lot of people do. I decided to become a teenager, i felt that i can shield myself from real pain, and possible feel loved, something i wasnt feeling in real life. Five years later of after changing my identity twice, i did find some happiness but at the same time realized it could not really happen, i got involved in several internet relationships, some of them really falling in love, but knowing that it could not ever be real. I'm currently still under an assumed identity, i don't do this to hurt people but i suppose i do, do it for my own selfish reasons. Thier has been sexual talk and i have tried to limit myself to guys around the age bracket that i assume which is a 17 year girl. I know this sounds terrible, but i'm happy and i know it's not fair to them, but i don't see no other way of being really happy, sometimes i want to tell them so much but i know i'll be rejected. So i continue in my fantasy world assuming an identity and creating situations in my life to make it believable. I'm currently invovled with a guy and really have feelings for him, it's killing me not telling him but i can't help myself and i dont think i will ever tell him. I know one day i will have to end this and i also know one day he will be hurt, believe it or not i will also be hurt, because what i feel is real love on my part, it's torture knowing i will never ever be able to be with him. I don't know how long i will continue my impersonation or call it what you want, but for now and for however long i decide to continue i will be who i am, in interent world, whats funny is it somewhat goes over into real life, phone conversations that is, that's as far as it will ever go.

MY dad is drinking himself to death. I used to be angry about it, now I'm still angry but I don't care if he changes. I think he'll probably die in the next couple of years, and all I can think of is what a chickenshit bastard he is to shut out the world and live in his cabin alone, dead to the world, inebreated watching tv. I don't feel guilty for feeling like this either. Fu... bastard