My wife has a chronic illness that leaves her mostly bedridden and is in constant excruciating pain to the point of screaming all night long. I am her caretaker, and I'm so jaded and frustrated because I'm completely useless in alleviating her pain. The suffering causes her to be unbearably hateful towards me. I know I'm shutting down emotionally and it's like I don't even care anymore. We have no money, vehicle, no help. I'd rather die than keep on this way.

I have a French speaking exam tomorrow. I also have History homework due in for tomorrow, and English exam preparation homework due in for yesterday. I'm only half way through my history, have not done any English or practiced any French. I get so anxious about homework and exams that I push them to the back of my mind until the last minute, where I feel even worse about them. I don't know how to stop doing this.

There is this guy I know. Who I am completely in love with. He is the reason that I wake up every single morning. He is the reason that Laugh. I have so many reasons to love him. I love him because he puts effort into me. I love him because nobody else's has ever shown this complete and total amount of support into me. Because I know that he'll always catch me. I love him because he makes me smile even when I've all but forgotten how to. I love him because he makes me feel like I'm worth something. That im important. I don't that he will ever know how very much he means to me. That when I'm without him Im lost. That he's my light when it's dark out. That he helps me through so much. I can't stand being away from him and I'm honestly a bit obesssed with him. I love him and every little detail about him. And I always will for he is mine and I am his. <3

January 2012 - I self harm for the first time.
May 2012 - My eating disorder starts.
August 2012 - Councillor 1 (3 months)
January 2013 - My depression starts. My suicidal feelings start.
March 2013 - Suicide attempt 1
June 2013 - Councillor 2 (2 months). Suicide attempt 2. My anxiety starts.
August 2013 - Councillor 3 (1 session)
September 2013 - Councillor 4 (3 months)
November 2013 - Councillor 5 (13 months)
December 2013 - Suicide attempt 3.
May 2014 - Councillor 6 (1 session)
November 2014 - 16th birthday.

He said we could stay, he would take care of us, no problem. He LIKED being able to help. But I won't sleep with him, now he's changed his mind. I feel pissed. Let down. I took a lot of abuse in my other situation and it took a lot for me to ask for help for fear of getting let down. Now it's happened again. Living in the middle of nowhere, no vehicle, no job, no family. My son and I are so hungry. God has to help. People don't help, except to obligate you for their own gain.

I have had an internet best friend for 3 Years now and i feel bad for always lying to her. I've lied to her that i have a best guy friend in school who always protects me. I have lied to her that i have 2 cousins who are always here for me and live nearby. Surely i have 2 cousins but i barely talk to them. I can't stand lying to her anymore it's so hard :(

When I was 15 I had an 18 y/o boyfriend. One day, we were at my house - just the two of us. He raped me. I told him I didn't want to have sex and asked him to stop, but he pinned me down and did it anyway. The whole time he kept saying that we were supposed to be together and he kept kissing the tears that fell down my face. I didn't tell anyone at first because I didn't think anyone would believe me, or that they would blame me for the incident. I felt like people would tell me, -You were asking for something like this to happen.- My boyfriend and I did have a sexual relationship before the incident. I guess that's why he thought what he did was okay, like I belonged to him or something. At first, I didn't know what to think. Since then, I haven't felt like the incident really impacted my life in a significant way, but maybe it has. I've been thinking about it a lot recently, and have started to feel anxious about it. I'm not sure what to do, but it's throwing me off in a major way.

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