I'm afraid. I'm afraid of heights, I act tough around people because I feel that's my duty; to be the fearless one to save everyone. But in all reality I'm scared. I'm scared of death, I'm scared of the future; I'm even scared of knowing that one day that this all will end life will end, the world, my parents and my family as a whole; I'm afraid for myself and them. But I've figured out that it is my life goal and mission to end my life by saving another person, I've told myself this since I was 10 and I have to fulfill it, but I'm starting to get too scared. People see me as the guy that will take his own life for another, the one that will climb up a 100 foot tree to save a cat and jump off risking life. but I'm not, inside I'm afraid of what will happen if I do those things, I'm terrified of death and change. Each night I sit in my room praying to someone out there for the people I love to have peaceful endless lives. But I don't even believe in god, I want to, but I don't know how.

When I was in High school, the only defining thing about me was that i was bullied in middle school in a very bad way. It was mostly because i liked angry screamo music and that made people think i cut myself, and I never did. But, when iw as 16 i met a girl who did and the fact that she did destroyed me. She was my girlfriend, and one day when i was coming home from school, and i had an out of body experience. During it, a voice told me that if it was good enough for her, then it was good enough for me. So that day i cut myself with a pair of scissors. She noticed the next day and for quite a while we had a -third base- type relationship and we'd cut ourselves alot, her with a mini swiss army knife and me with a wineglass i ment to break or a lightbulb that i broke accidently. She lost interest in me and it took everything to quit, but i did. But every time i look at my scars, i want to do it again

I miss you. You always tell me I mean something to you and I never quite can tell where I stand with you. I'm doing what's best for me by cutting you out of my life- for good this time. It's all so subtle the way you discourage me, from what you write about him, to your pictures with him, to how you talk to him while ignoring me. And then you turn around and tell me you're hurt by how I don't make an effort. I can't deal anymore. I'm clinically depressed now and I can't let you get in the way of college. It's been good knowing you but I don't know you anymore. You've never loved me and don't you ever start to think you will. I'm leaving for good this time and if you really loved me you would have made an effort to keep me like I always made the effort to keep you. I will always love you. It's not goodnight this time. Goodbye.

I had an affair with my husbands nephew. while my husband thinks it happened a handful of times. In reality the affair lasted 14 months. To tell you the truth I dont know why it ended. But as abruptly as it started it ended.Even though we still talk and still tell one another how much we love each other. I know We can never be together. I wouldnt hurt my husband any more than i have.But I cant stop this feeling of love that I have for him. If given the opportunity I would give in to my passion and be with him again. Even though I was going through changes of losing my mother and having marital problems. I would relive that experience again. It was the best 14 months of my life. I love my husbands nephew very much. He captivated my heart and soul. Nothing can make me not love him. I tried to tell myself that it was a fling. But my heart wont let me let him go. Its hard when you are in love with two men at the same time.

I'm in love with my best friend. We have dated before at the beginning of the school year but we broke off because we could see each other as more as friends. The only thing is, I still love him. He cares about me and I care about him. Sometimes he could be a big douchebag but I know he just acts like that because he want's someone to care for him. He said he feels dead, like no one would even care if he existed. He always comes to me with his problems and we always talk it out and I make him feel better. He's always there for me and I'll always be there for him. I still love him, but I don't know if he loves me back. I'm so completely lost.

I'm 17 1/2 stone, have arthritis in my hips and back, so I'm trying to lose weight, so that my partner and I can start trying for a baby. The only problem is, when my partner goes to work Thursday, Friday and Saturday night, I go to the local shop and buy loads of chocolate and crisps and eat the lot. I just feel so useless and sad. I would love to be a Mum, but just can't seem to get my head round stopping my secret eating. I watch programmes about fat people and I cry, because I know what I need to do, I just can't do it.

There are times when I receive oral sex from a friend of mine and my wife does not know about this. I feel ashamed and sad to commit such an act, but when the opportunity arises I still do it. I love my wife dearly and just view it as a sexual act. However, I know that it can have horrendous consequences.

i think im a lesbian. i've been dating a couple of guys and it just doesn't click, i always tell them that i have personal issues i need to fix by myself. at that time i didnt exactly know what those issues are, maybe because i was in denial about it. but now i can definitely say it is because i like gilrs more than guys. no one knows about this. im scared and terrified in admitting this to anyone. i used to make homophobic jokes to everyone and i just know my family wouldnt accept the fact that im a lesbian now im currently dating a guy and he is nice and perfect. but i dont feel anything special towards him and i feel bad for using him to cover up the fact that i am a lesbian . i know i have to break it off but for some reason theres a part of me thats being hopeful that me being a lesbian is just a phase...i hate this..this is making me uncomfortable and sick