one of my favorite fantasies is that my boyfriend would get me all naked and wet, tie my hands to the bed, and gag me. then tell me that he invited his business partner over and open the door. Telling his biz partner what to do to me and how I like it. I would love a threesome with two dudes. My boyfriend thinks spanking me is kinky. I wish he was more dirty and forceful. Once I asked him to try to fist me, but he's not rough enough. I love him but our sex life is boring.

I think...I have D.I.D. Disassociative personality disorder. A split personality. No one has a clue... All my life, when I obeyed without question and kissed people's asses and apologized when I did nothing wrong, there was always that part of me yelling to be let out and to stand up to these people and be daring, and to screw what they think, and that I was an awesome person that didn't have to go through a qualification proccess to be wanted and loved, and that I should be confident. I was none of these things... I was scared and nervous and cautious and felt worthless. I held back the bold side because I was afraid of it... and then a month ago, someone did me wrong, and I snapped. Now, he (yes, my other personality is male) is making me confident and standing up to people and having fun... and he says we're nowhere near done yet, that he's still going to do more to improve my life, and confidence- to get my life back for me. And I want to see what happens, because I'm enjoying it.

I'm almost done with university. I have to finish my thesis and a corse. I've learned today that I've been kicked out of this corse, due to lack of commitment. This means I'll be studying for at least another half year. My parents and my boyfriend are so eager to see me finish school that I just can't tell them this. I'll wait for another 2 months and tell them I failed the corse because it was too hard. I cannot tell them that I just wasn't commited and slacking. I hate myself for this right now. I'll be signing a contract this month for a fulltime job, this might also be off due to this stupid corse. I really can't tell my boyfriend. He and I were going to buy a house, but with no salary we won't be able. He's going to be so dissapointed. I hate this so much...

i've been pretending my thesis proposal was already accepted but in truth i've been too nervous to submit it. now i'm trying to submit it but it might be too late, and i might not graduate. my family already spent a bunch of money and bought plane tickets to come to the commencement ceremony. i feel so stupid and ashamed that i let my nerves get the best of me and that i didn't tell the truth.

I wish I was closer to God. Every day I wake up, and I realize how bad of a person I am. I don't try and pray every night, or thank God for the things that I have. I always use his name in vain, and I hate that I do that. I'm only 13 but sometimes I wish for death so I could meet God. I wish He could give me a sign that He's here, and that He will always protect me. I know God works in strange ways, but ... I'm confused, is He there for me?

The other night I was walking home from the pub, I am usually a pretty decent guy, non violent. Anyways so I see this old lady standing outside my neighbor house. Being the "good guy" I decide to go and find out if anything is wrong. She got very upset, because she was frightened. So I reassured her that I am her neighbor, and I'm just checking if everything is ok. Her Son heard something and was inside, opened the window, and at the same time the wife came down and outside. They all were very rude and has bad attitudes. Since I was trying my best to be polite and helpful I was upset by this. At home I was still furious with the whole scene, so I went back to their house, and took a pee on their front gate, as I was peeing the dog started barking, the wife saw me taking a gigantic pee on their gate. The next day he came around, and we sorted the matter out, but I still feel bad about it. Its a small village and I don't want my name tarnished by this. Do you think its that bad?

i have sinned. I am very shameful for that. I feel disgusting. These sins i keep on repeating again and again. I masturbate. I read porn. These sins makes me feel unworthy. i want to overcome it but i don't know how. :(

I had sex when i was in grade 2. My friend trevor and i took turns on top of a girl named alexandra, who was willing to do it everytime trevor teased her about it, under a spare table at one of those indoor recess days. we didn't know any better on what kissing was all about.. I just pecked her lips as she pouted on mine and we exchanged sexual friction onto our bodies while i was on her. From that day forward we learned how to camoflauge our behaviours even better. I remember that we would stack ourselves on top of each other when going down a slide in the playground to obtain that good feeling. Me and trevor would just take turns to have the spot on top of alexandra to adjust a fair slide. We'd often make out with alexandra in free reading time where everyone was scattered in the classroom and all the busy individuals wouldn't notice as trevor and i took turns blocking. I remember her saying -I'd do it with you guys- WE were never sure of what it really meant but tht ws wht startdit