On the 25th of December 2015 my first love died. It was my ex boyfriend. Something terrible happend to him in jail. I was in the hospital with him to say the last goodbye. He wanted me there. I still can't get over it I want to go where he is. My heart is broken in peaces. While he was in jail and we were not together, I met this girl we got together and I fell in lover however she gained this horrible diease and it turned into cancer :(. When I heard that my ex boyfriend is in hospital I didnt want to go first but then I saw a video of him and pther people praying for him hoping he will survive so I went there. The girl understood my pain even when it did hurt her that I felt so sad because of my ex boyfriend. I could cope and I still cant now. We broke up because of daily arguments. Shes now in hospital because doctors said her cancer is very difficult to be treated I am scared the same thing is going to happen. I dont know what to do :( My parents dont even know about this girl :(