I am not sure how I feel about my girlfriend all the time. I'm a woman, and she is the first person I have ever dated. I have never even kissed anyone else. I have dated her for a long time now and think i'm going to marry her. Sometimes I wish I could have sex with a guy, just for the sensation. I have tried to tell her, but I think she is worried that she is not enough. She is more than enough, I think I just have a higher sex drive than her. I worry that this together with my mental health struggles, and our collective inexperience will make our relationship not work out in the long run. I wonder if im a bad person for seeing the end while I still have something and someone so pure and loving and wonderful?