I've changed rapidly these past few months and I don't know why or how to get back to how I used to be. I'm not as funny or happy; I find it difficult to talk to people I used to strike up conversations with including my closest friends and I'm just a completely different person. I don't think I'm depressed, though I'm not happy, I'm not sad either: just distant. It's really frustrating. Before I turned to alcohol and weed to pull me out of my shell but now it's got no or - even worse - negative effects like irrational paranoia. I just miss me...