TRIGGER WARNIN I need to make a horrible confession. Only 2 people know of what I’ve done. Essentially, I am part of the 2% of sexual assault cases that are false. When I was 11/12 I was in a fight with my parents. I suddenly stopped and said “I need to tell you guys something”, breaking down crying. “I was raped!” Immediately they knelt down and hugged me, asking questions. I just remember my dad’s face, it fell and broke the moment the words came out of my mouth. They told my sister. They investigated the area I told them it took place. To cover my tracks I said I wasn’t raped but more assaulted, explains that the man just tried to take me and kiss me/feel me. What’s worse-I KEPT ON LYING TO OTHERS. I told some school friends, my martial art family. They were all supportive. I want to die. I don’t know what to do. I’ve told my therapist and my mom, both of which were very forgiving. Which I don’t think I deserve. I have been abusing myself over it for 5-6 years. I don’t deserve love.