An anonymous e-admission by an unregistered user.
I need to make a horrible confession. Only 2 people know of what Iíve done. Essentially, I am part of the 2% of sexual assault cases that are false.
When I was 11/12 I was in a fight with my parents. I suddenly stopped and said ďI need to tell you guys somethingĒ, breaking down crying. ďI was raped!Ē Immediately they knelt down and hugged me, asking questions. I just remember my dadís face, it fell and broke the moment the words came out of my mouth.
They told my sister. They investigated the area I told them it took place. To cover my tracks I said I wasnít raped but more assaulted, explains that the man just tried to take me and kiss me/feel me.
Whatís worse-I KEPT ON LYING TO OTHERS. I told some school friends, my martial art family. They were all supportive.
I want to die. I donít know what to do. Iíve told my therapist and my mom, both of which were very forgiving. Which I donít think I deserve. I have been abusing myself over it for 5-6 years. I donít deserve love.