Jeez ok I have 2 personalitys and one of them is the one everyone knows as a kind stubborn funny and what not artist but that's not really me. I'm an person who likes hearing about people dying and I'm not kind at all I just think of ways to hurt people and when I heard my dad was dying I hate to say it but I hoped he would die and I keep hearing voices in my head telling me to starve and kill myself like wow how fucked up am I. Honestly I only have one friend I don't want to be her friend because Im scared one I'm going to hurt her.for so many years I had to pretend I was someone else but no no no no no no no no no no I am so close to ripping my skin off I can't keep pleasing my parents I traced others people art for so long just to convince my parents I'm not a failure but now I don't do that anymore thank god for that at least I'm still an artist tho anyways I don't know how to please my parents anymore school has gone harder and Im breaking. I can't stand to live anymore Im done.