I wouldn't mind dying right now. Im deployed and my husband doesn't trust me. He wants a divorce. Tbh i think it would b better....he has narcissistic personality disorder and adhd. So dealing with the emotional rollercoaster of his abuse while also having to constantly do things for him because of his extreme adhd is so tiring. And with me overseas his abuse and how his jealous tendencies get worse. He discredits all the ways he's hurt and lied to me throughout our relationship. But one small thing happens and everything is suddenly my fault. When i bring up the ways he hurts me he acts like he never did anything wrong but he is so quick to point out my faults and name call and degrade me for his well being....im so tired. But im so scared to lose him...what a crazy feeling this is.