I really don't know if I'm acting or not when I show off my emotions to anyone. I'm not an actress or anything but I do read stories and watch movies that sometimes I copy their act. I notice this half a year ago, when the doctor's been explaining the terrible news about my Mom, and also in her death bed. I was crying but then in the middle, there's this small me on my head saying "Your just acting" or "Is this real crying?". After that i've always been doubtful of myself whether i'm acting or this is real, specially when I lash out because of the shitty life after Mom. I don't know anymore.